Darktwilight

I’m starting to think im the only actual human on tumblr like are there any real people on this app anymore? All I see are literally bots and dating accounts...super odd

#𝔖𝔗𝔘ℭ𝔎ℑ𝔑𝔐𝔜𝔅ℜ𝔄ℑ𝔑

𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐬𝐚𝐢𝐝 “𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬” 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐲 𝐝𝐢𝐝𝐧’𝐭 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐝𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐚𝐬 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐥

ⁱᵗ ˢᵘᶜᵏˢ ᵗᵒ ᶠᵉᵉˡ ˡⁱᵏᵉ ⁿᵒᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ’ˢ ʷᵒʳᵏⁱⁿᵍ ᵒᵘᵗ, ᵗᵒ ᶠᵉᵉˡ ˡⁱᵏᵉ ʸᵒᵘ’ʳᵉ ᵃ ᶠᵃⁱˡᵘʳᵉ...ᵃᵗ ᵉᵛᵉʳʸᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ. ᴸⁱᵏᵉ ⁿᵒ ᵐᵃᵗᵗᵉʳ ʰᵒʷ ʰᵃʳᵈ ʸᵒᵘ ᵗʳʸ ᵃⁿᵈ ʰᵒʷ ᵐᵘᶜʰ ᵉᶠᶠᵒʳᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ᵖᵘᵗ, ⁱᵗ ᵃˡˡ ᵍᵒᵉˢ ᵗᵒ ʷᵃˢᵗᵉ...

I just love being ignored and left out of conversations y‘know.

I get really scared sometimes that maybe, just maybe, it is indeed all in my head. That I’m delusional, and that there’s nothing actually wrong. That my subconsciousness, is just making up problems that aren’t even there. Trying to involuntarily conform to a society that glorifies teen depression and mental illness, making it seem “cool” “edgy” and....”relatable”.

I’m still hurting, no matter how hard I try to forget, no matter how much time passes. If it’s part of my past it’ll always stay with me, even if I don’t want it to.