ive barely touched this blog in about a whole year. i currently have 9 months sober and 2 1/2 months on testosterone. im finally pursuing freelance art and have passions and interests again. i have friends and family with me at all times and i even have a cat now.
its hard to let go of this silly tumblr blog because ive had it for almost an entire decade now. if i were to scroll to when i started id find posts about homestuck, one direction and questioning my gender. it would fade into anime posts and slowly get more political and aesthetic. some vents and posting about music, then take a sharp turn into nonsense ramblings and posting pictures of my own drug use.
its hard to look back on lots of these things for many reasons but i dont have it in me to deactivate or log out. now that i want to follow freelance art ive considered making a new tumblr blog totally unrelated to this one. although im not sure how the nsfw ban affects art or how hostile fandom on here is right now.
i made friends here but ultimately only still talk to one, though not on this platform and pretty rarely these days. i suppose im only typing out and posting this for myself and my own closure. an open letter to something inanimate that was formative in my teens and young adult years.
