xoxo life with Doriann....

I don’t have it in me today…. And I’m exhausted mentally and emotionally today. I’ve had so many “why” conversations with God this morning before going back to sleep. Nothing makes sense today to me. Why didn’t get I my moment of solitude that was presented, why did I have to be the one to say yes to so many things, why didn’t everyone come back when i finally got my chance at “Me & mines”, why I couldn’t have stayed at school, why did Teddy have to leave, why did she be the the one to show up in his life and wreck the rest of our life, why I had to move back here, why did I have to leave the country side, why did I allow him back in my life 9years ago, why hasn’t that changes yet, why didn’t I cut that friend off 16yrs ago, why did I meet that person before they were ready, why…………. etc.

So I’m choosing to lay around, watch tv, scroll, and cry. I pushed through Friday-Sunday. Today …. I don’t have it in me….

I just can’t today.

That’s all, phone going on dnd and yea that’s it

xoxo

Doriann

P.s. Eyore is my mood… 🩶💙