Summer 2023 was a summer that I’ll never forget. Some hard moments and some absolutely beautiful moments!

Dear Diary,

Sweet Sunday!!!

This has been a different Sunday and close of the month

2 months into the second quarter and I must say May for me has been one for the books. Grace and Miracles and mistakes and lessons and lots of memories

I think back over the years of my 30s and what May has felt like in each one.

The ones that’s hold weight

2018 - Beginnings

2019 - A mood

2020 - a new form of reassurance

2021 - Adjustment

2023 - new surroundings

2025 - closing a brief chapter

2026 - lessons on lessons barley passing test and possibly failed one. But I was affirmed and reassured BY GOD. And that triumphs everything else

This Sunday I sit in my fave place and I reflect on what this month has been. Things I could’ve done differently, how I could’ve prayed more, dug in my word more. Said no at times, not said anything at times. So much

However I learned, I saw where I still need help and fine tuning.

I do know I will not settle for anything

God doesn’t settle on me, so I’m not settling on me.

That for June is time to level up to the next level we at the mid point LEVEL UP DORIANN

I’m leaving this month knowing this:

that I am absolutely where the Lord wants me to be. I know who I identify with and what I carry according to Gods word. That as long as I keep what he asked me to surrender, in the place of let go that I operate best, timing is everything. That my discernment isn’t off. That my heart is pure… not perfect but pure. That I am loved by more than I know.

Now I’m leaving this month without some answers, waiting for some promises, waiting for the next doors to open.

And I am positioning myself for June, to be found in his presence, stepping forward in what God has asked of me. Staying in prayer. Cleaning my mind and my body. Healing at a higher level, giving at a higher level, and serving at a higher level. Giving myself MY ALL, loving me in such a way that I haven’t all year. June will be Justice, Joy, Judgment, doors closing, promises confirmed for launching, new ideas, quiet, re-adjusting.

Sweet Sunday

May May May… I knew you was going to be one because God spoke to me in your weather.

So long May

xoxo Deedee

this was supposed to be posted yesterday but I forgot 🤣

Feb 1, 2026

Dear Gorgeous Readers!

Jan 2026 - The Introduction

I survived!!!!!

Jan is my self reflection month before my new year begins which is my bday in Feb (the peak of being top of the year baby).

For as long as I’ve been an adult it’s been my month to look at self and see okay what’s needs improvement, etc.

Since 2018 it’s been God what needs improvement… and that is a risky question and journey to take because it’s heavy. And the more you and God grow… baby the heavier it gets what he will you about you…. Good and BAD.

It’s the refinement place for me. It’s the put me on the altar and fire. 🔥

And after 5 long weeks, allowing God to show me, me in silence, in correction, in revealing, what I had going on, what was lingering, what was out of place. Allowing him to break me, surrender at a deeper level, let go fully of me and things I was holding onto even in the smallest ways. I allows him to really convict me, rather it be my words said to self or others. Convict my mind of the thoughts I was having due to things I was feeling in my heart that thought it’s not that bad I thought it but NAW IT IS. I allowed him to show me where I neglected him.

More bad was shown than good… and I like it like that because I need to know where to correct, because being out of correction leases to distraction, delays, and etc. so correct me before I wreck me.

Jan I had to release things I was like oh still struggling there, still dropping the ball there.

It was a JOURNEY over 5 weeks.

Deep calls to deep

I saw Gods most reckless love for me as he would show me things!

Ohhhhhh and I got a deeper understanding of Love from a relational perspective.

I do believe I have pleased my God, I have the peace that surpasses alllllll that’s going on around me and with me. A peace that 🥹 I still may be waiting on some promises from God rather it be relationally, financially, emotionally, mentally, spiritually, physically, etc.

But I’m at peace, with myself, with life, with correction, with God and others.

I’m at a place where God we started this 30s journey together and we gone end them locked in and loaded as we prepare for the next Chapter 40.

God has done his big one in this Jan loving me still, guiding me still, correcting me still, affirming me, and so much more.

I can’t wait to see who life shifts as I enter Feb and then 39, with God in me and with me, nothing stands a chance!

xoxo 💋

doriann L