Camden

lyra is gone.

the amount of irony in my mother being the one to fucking suggest the ng tube for lyra between her own ed her refusal to accept my own and her insistence that lyra is ready to die her first feed is running now and we had them put her pepcid and probiotic medicine down it too. please send so many good vibes that she can keep this down and it helps her start to feel better. she has note eaten anything in days and she needs to be able to eat and keep food down on her own to be able to go home (so thats not the tube feed no but it gets food in her and gets her on the right path). my mom said if she has not made significant progress by tomorrow she is done paying and lyra has to die and that CANNOT happen.

living in a vet hospital is not a thing we would recommend just fyi

lyra got a feeding tube and they said they have consulted with a critical care specialist so so so so so fucking scared my mom said if she isnt getting better enough by tomorrow she is going to stop paying because lyra wants to die WHICH ISNT TRUE IT ISNT lyra wants to be okay and go home!!!!!

can some rich human please swoop in and pay lyra's vet bills so she does not have to die when my mom stops paying

my mom wont pay for lyra to get more treatment after tomorrow unless she gets significantly better this is not a be dead thing but she says lyra wants to be dead we have no fucking clue what to do lyra doesnt want to be dead. and doesnt deserve that.

lyra is still not eating. something is wrong with her blood? they think she might have an infection? not braining good. failing lyra. just need her to be okay and shes fucking not. they said maybe not go home today.

we are still at the er with lyra. they say she isnt allowed to leave until she starts eating and she still has no interest in eating. she has slept some. they keep giving her ouchy medicine. we dont get how there cant be more to help they just keep saying they are doing everything they can.

we are back at the er with lyra got denied for financing they want her to stay for at least 24 hours they think the medicines were not being absorbed to work well enough

lyra is very sick :( monday night she started having just liquid explodey poop every 3 hours. we took her to her vet human wednesday (the nice one we trust wasnt working tuesday). at that point she was still eating, though with a little bit of coaxing. but having to go out every 3 hours to poop liquid. they gave her some medicines and said her poop tests for anything wrong other than just being 3 hours and liquid looked fine. went home. then things started going wrong. she started throwing up. would not keep any of the new medicines down. on top of the going out to poop still. then they gave us some throw up medicine. she threw that up too at like 2am so thats when i decided no we are definitely going to an er this cannot wait until morning. so we got to the er at 3am and didnt get home until 930. obviously i did not sleep at all. she kept throwing up there too. and needing out to poop. they did a bunch of tests. gave her a bunch of medicines that she did not throw up finally. all the tests were okay. they think she is just having a really really really really really bad flare up of her stomach stuff. so they sent us home with a different ouchy medicine this morning. well. after sleeping most of the day. she still has not eaten. and is now just sort of leaking blood. she is keeping the medicines down. but still needing out to poop now that she is more awake. we wrote the emergency vet cuz still worried since she is not eating. they wrote back that if there is blood we might need to come back and have her stay the night again for more medicines. we wrote back to ask if they thought we could give it overnight to sleep at home and then decide. or if they felt it was definitely important to come back tonight. we are still waiting for a reply. we spent all of our rent monies plus all the monies we had left. my mom says she might help. but who knows right now. we just so badly need lyra to be okay and she just isnt. and we dont know how to be okay. or how to make her okay when the things arent working. shes never had a flare up this bad. please please please please please send her all the good vibes and anything else you all like to do in times like these. will take anything we can get for her.

so we have been doing some remote work on and off for this guy who owns a farm a little over an hour away. it's mostly cows with some sheepies and ponies. most of what i do remotely is just help maintain herd statistics and info. so like i've created a database for the herd in excel, tracked family lines, and so on. this is all mostly online but the website itself is clunky, and when they're out there working and just have your phone they can't easily use it. so having it in the excel document all right there is much easier for them to navigate. i also help look at sale/auction catalogs and narrow it down for them. so if an auction has 30 cows, i can look through based on their criteria and say okay here's like, the top 10 closest to what you want. focus on these. and make a little spreadsheet with their stats and bloodlines for them. anyways he asked if i would actually come to the farm yesterday to help out and enter info into the database in real time while they worked the cows. i had no idea what to expect but i was able to line up someone to come check on lyra so i agreed to go, since i can't exactly turn down a days worth of paid work while in job searching hell. basically i just sat there off to the side on the computer lol. they had the cows in pens by their barn, and then led them into the barn and through this chute system. each individual cow needed to be identified (ideally by their ear tatoo - think of a tb lip tattoo and how hard that is to read similar idea). and then once they were identified, they had to decide which breeding project/herd they should be assigned to based on their stats, conformation, and health. then put on an ear tag accordingly. this was my first time around cows so obviously i'm not ask knowlegeable but figured the experience was worth sharing for those curious. my understanding is the ear tags are similar to piercings and i was told it really doesn't hurt them to just replace it. my job was essentially to look through the database to try to help identify the cows. i.e. if the tattoo says j67 maybe i find one in the database with a j69 and say its a cow born in 2022 they go yea that looks right. then they looked her up and would say okay she should go in herd b, so they would make a new tag color coded by herd and it would be okay this cow has a new purple tag for herd b and her id is 217 (the 2 at the start referring to her year of birth). so then i'd also add that info into the database, along with any info on her health, this one has hoof rot, this one is older and we're gonna sell her, stuff like that. I'll have to integrate it into the rest of it later on now that i'm back home but yea. We got through about 30 cows, working for not quite 6 hours. very slow going and pretty boring to just sit there, but it was nice to see things and see how stuff kinda works. also if you were wondering. cows are MUCH louder than we anticipated. and also much snottier and droolier. so much snot and drool lol. but they were very cute.