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I didn’t know the kid that well and I didn’t have any classes with him so I never really talked to him that much. I knew his name. His name was Kevin. Sometimes I’d see him at parties on the weekends. He still had his baby bottle. He would fill it with beer and rum.

He dated my sister’s friend, Emily, for a little while. I had known Emily for a long time. She had been a friend of my sister’s since they were five or six. They were really good friends. She spent a lot of time at our house for sleepovers and stuff. Sometimes she would pee the bed, but I never made fun of her for it. I think most older brothers would have loved the opportunity to make fun of their sister’s friend for peeing the bed and I think she really appreciated that I never mentioned it even though I definitely knew about it because after the sixth or seventh time, my parents started paying me to clean everything up instead of having to do it themselves.

I asked Emily why Kevin only ever drank out of a baby bottle and she said that she didn’t know. They had only been dating for a very short time at that point and she didn’t want to bring it up and offend him or anything. I asked her to tell me if she ever found out. They broke up right after that and I kind of forgot about it because Kevin stopped going to school. I don’t know if he transferred or dropped out, but I never saw him at lunch or any parties after that.

I hadn’t thought about him in a long time, but Emily happened to mention him while she was over at our house recently and I immediately remembered the baby bottle thing.

“Did you ever find out why he drank out of that bottle?” I asked.

Then 5 minutes later they come back acting like nothing is wrong asking for forgiveness

Like ‘No you fucking made me feel bad, your my god damn parents you’re supposed to make me feel better about myself! NOT MAKE ME FEEL WORSE’

Then when you dont accept their apology and hold a small grudge, They get all pissed about it and start treating you like shit and making you feel bad

1) Mistakes are never allowed. 2) Never ask for help. 3) Never make the family “look bad” - even if you have to lie. 4) Do not mention God (even though we go to church). 5) Social workers are evil people; go to all lengths to make sure they never have a reason to take you away - even if you have to lie. 6) Friends are not welcome. 7) Sex does not exist. 8) Parents may never apologize, but children must apologize for everything - even things they didn’t do.   

9) Never express emotions. 10) You are always wrong. 11) You don’t deserve respect. 12) If you are not working to serve your parents, you are a horrible person. 13) Never relax. Always work. 14) Having fun is wrong. 15) Unnecessary chores are more important than homework or sleep. 16) You are lazy and disrespectful, and that can never change. 17) Violent yelling is encouraged. 18) You may not be independent. 19) Your opinion is wrong. 20) Your memories are wrong.

21) Do not socialize. 22) Fear your parents. 23) School work must be above average. 24) Do not share your feelings.