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I love you just as much — maybe even more.

And I can bet you that I love you most.

Right.

What’s stopping you?

Now that I'm thinking about it... Nothing is.

I — Yep. Yep. That’s it. Right on the money. 

Wish I was that cat.

Cat got your tongue?

I — I — Uh, Sha… Shakira Shakiraaa.

What's wrong, baby? Can't handle my hips?

I’ll make sure it likes us, c’mon. It’ll be a rescue cat — one from the shelter. They’re always nice. I think it’s because they’re like “Yeah dude, thanks for adopting me.” You can cuddle a cat more than you can cuddle a dog! Second boyfriend? I don’t like that name, find a different one. Fine, fine. But… what if they don’t get along? That could be a serious problem. Guest room. Or something. I’m bringing it for sure though, yeah. I need it. Mitchell and anyone is just cringe. So fucking gross — he’s like… he has stacks on stacks on stacks of porn magazines under his bed. Poor guy’s desperate I think. Yeah, I know. But hey, you got me, I got you; we’ll be okay.

Fine. We'll get a cat, but in the future I want a puppy! A kitty, puppy, and.. Twins? I mean, you know, if we're lucky. Yeah. You're such a dork, you know that? I had Tikki, but someone doesn't like the idea of a dog anyways. Maybe Zuni we'll be my second boyfriend, but don't worry. He'll never replace you. Don't you remember? You're all the man I need. I'm sure they're get along just fine! Aw, I bet they'll snuggle together and everything. We'll get a girl pup, and a boy cat. We can put my bed in a guest room and use yours, yours is comfortable and it smells like you. I don't get why he has porn when the internet works just fine.. We'll be more than okay, right?

Yep. I’ve already decided — you’ve got no say. Sorry. A dog? Why a dog? Dog’s are loud and you need to let them outside like every 2 minutes and they just… slobber a lot. Let’s get a cat! We can name him Zuni and he will be the best cat ever. Sleep in my old bed? I’ll just bring it with me, you goof. You really think I’d leave that bed behind? Mitchell would probably bring in some randy to screw around with and my empty room would be his first place to go. Good, you scared me a lil back there.

What if the cat doesn't like us, Noah? It could scratch us and not be cuddly, I want something to cuddle when you're working late nights or something. I need a second boyfriend, y'know? ..You get Zuni, I'll get Tikki. I think that's a better plan anyways then we're both happy. You're bringing it? I thought, we would just get a bigger bed.. Oh, ew. Stop, him and his random hook ups are just, cringe. I'm sorry I scared you, just, growing up is pretty scary.

You just gotta relax, okay? It’ll all work out one way or another. We’re both going to get accepted to amazing schools, if not the same school, as we’ll… we’ll buy a nice little apartment and eat Kraft Dinner all day, every day. Whenever we’re not learning stuff. That’s how it’s gonna go.

We're gonna live together? We can play video games while I sit on your lap, and oh! We can get a dog, name him Tikki because why not. We'll even study together so we don't fall behind and when it's weekends we can come home and sleep in your old bed because well, I'll just miss your bed. Okay, I'm, I think I'm calm now.

Because, I'm just-- I'm nervous.

Relaaaax…

Winnnnnnieeee…

No, no. Don't do that, the thing. Stop it.

Winnie — baby, calm down. Breathe. It’s not even spring yet. We have time. 

I, I can't calm down, Noah. You know how I am about this, my future is like, everything to me.. I just, I need to know if I'm going somewhere and if I'm not then I need to find a job quick, and Jesus, what if I do get accepted? What if you don't? What if-- We just, we don't have much time..

College… gross. I don’t even wanna think about it. Stop it. 

Why? It's almost Summer, Noah! Then it'll be September and we'll both be in college. We have to think about our future.. Did you, did you even look at the application I gave you for my number one school choice?