Antares

Death is one of the few concepts in life that will teach and show us how temporary we are. As humans, we tend to forget that we are temporary on this earth and that no matter how powerful or influential we are one day it will all be gone. Our legacy might live on, but we as people will not exist in this true reality. Now we can look at this concept in two ways; one is to use the power we were provided with, in order to truly do what is decent. To leave the earth knowing that we did no harm, and we manipulated no soul. Or we can carry our scheme in the course of accepting the most corrupt part of us, to further manipulate everyone around us into thinking that we are doing “what is truly right with good intentions” when in reality we are only thinking of ourselves and the power we possess. Now as selfish beings we truly struggle to become selfless and give without accepting anything back. In life, we will constantly be presented with challenges and choices which one to choose falls on our shoulders, and these choices will create our pathways. To further elaborate on all the points I made above I would like to finish this piece with a question and I want you to ask yourself this; are you truly a selfless, good being, or is it all just an image you are trying to sell?

I can hear the wind from where I am. I can feel the wind creasing my cheeks, running through my hair the same way I want your fingers to. I sound so infatuated when I talk about you, how rosy my cheeks turn and my hands become shaky, oh how I run out of breath when you pass by or how my heart skips a beat. How I want to run to you whenever I see you, while my legs are too weak to carry me and my ego is too prideful to move me. Here I am once again writing about how beautiful and fascinating you are and you, you do not know or I would like to assume so. My eyes look for yours whenever I am outside my eyes look for your comfort the way you praise and carry me, with the same confidence you carry yourself. You don’t and never will. I will not be the one to let these feelings show, because I know these feelings will be the end of me.

Raw, what determines how raw can we be with one another? How can we trust the other person to the point where we show all of our flaws? We tend to build walls all around us; we tend to build walls so high it is nearly impossible for us to climb out above them. The rawness of the person across us will determine the walls that will be broken down. Some will be so raw we won’t help it but let them see right through these walls without them even trying.  Now if we do let them see through these walls it will mean that the walls are now made out the glass, in this case, we gave them the rock, and they will choose to either break the glass to pieces or give us the rock back.

Hypocrisy, the irony of this specific word is the fact that we as humans all have been hypocrites at some point, or we will be in the future. Now to narrow the pathway down to the specific events that would have led us to that act is very unnecessary and irrelevant. What we must do is learn, learn from the hypocritical comments we make, learn from the discrimination we created against certain people, learn from all the situations our certain ideologies have led us to, and in order to do that we need to understand that human minds change. The change that is made on a daily will not only change the way we think, as a matter of fact, but that’s also the least of our concerns. It will change our thinking pattern, the way we express our emotions, thoughts, and idea. We have to understand that changing will make us hypocrites in the eyes of our past, but it will make us proud in the eyes of our future selves.

Experiencing the world in the wilderness so raw will constantly leave you speechless about how beautiful everything is when you are only experiencing your surroundings. Mental strength comes from understanding that silence is maturity in certain situations, silence is philosophy, and silence is the practice of mental open-mindedness and strategy. Silence will guide you to stating the right words and making the right moves. In order for us to truly experience silence, we need to listen. Ironically listening will lead us to silence. Because silence is always half of the answer we are looking for. Take a breath relax, and listen to the silence.

Humans set goals in order to reach their rewards. But now let’s think about how the world would change if we were to switch it up a little and instead remove the rewards we ought to receive when we reach our goals. Will we still have the same goal, or will these goals demolish into nothingness?

“Keep an open mind.” We are always asked to keep an open mind, whether it is for work, studies, life etc…. We all think that keeping an open mind will prevent us from making common mistakes, but from what I have learned so far is that keeping an open mind will lead you to missteps. Now; these missteps will lead to the path you originally aimed for. Whether this path is the right path, it is on you to decide, however understanding that our actions lead us to certain conclusions is the mentality we need in order to have an open mind in a healthy way. As I am writing this specific piece I keep looking back at the times, I didn’t keep an open mind and how my choices made me miserable, they didn’t lead me to missteps no it was quite the opposite they led me to the goal I aimed for but I wasn’t happy. I thought I had made it, but this accomplishment gave me no satisfaction. Then when I considered the situations where I kept an open mind and looked at every situation in different aspects, I understood nothing is as easy as it seems to be. Yet we always need to keep an open mind and a peaceful soul.

We as people tend to follow what we know. As a person who doesn’t know where to go, and what do. I am looking for answers at each and every corner I don’t always find them and to be frank, I never do. I only find answers when I am not looking for them. Now that I am here I am assuming that this is how life is we always find what we need when we are not looking for it. I won’t try to define what I need or what I want because, to be frank at this point in life I don’t know. And to be quite honest, it is okay not to know because not knowing opens you up to discover new opportunities and adventures.

I keep contemplating my worth; in my friends eyes. I don’t really know when all of this started but I must say I feel like I need to let go of some people. I don’t mean to necessarily leave and never call them. but to just not give them as much of an importance as I used. This takes me back to the fact that I am hurt. I am really hurt from all of the situations that keep putting in shock over and over again. I don’t really know where to look anymore all I know is that I am not as important and I never will be. 

I think free thinking women in general provoke men. Most men tend to deny that but whenever a woman makes an astonishing discovery or state a valuable hypothesis men tend to brush It off as an “emotional breakdown”. Now hear me out most of the statements I make sound like sentences written by radical feminists and don’t get me wrong I have nothing against them but we have to be logical in where we stand and what we are trying to present. Radical feminism doesn’t necessarily present me but in no means do I refer to it as a form of illogical extremism all I say is I don’t necessarily find it appealing to me.  Men on the other hand find the need to ridicule women in order to find the satisfaction of being superior. What men fail to understand is that, ridiculing people is a form of bullying and it only makes men look mentally weak and ridiculous. Now some of the people reading this specific piece of writing may think “oh but isn’t this ridiculing as well since you are calling them weak and ridiculous?” Well the answer is no and here is why. I am not trying to directly insult and belittle men so I can deliver my message. All I am trying to do is describe how they appear to be from a non-biased bystander who probably has nothing to do with any of it and is just observing and commenting.