half goddess half hell;

At this point I’m not sure what else to do. I’m not going anywhere, I don’t have anything to live for, I’m tired of being taken advantage of, I’m tired of being chronically lonely, I’m tired of never being good enough, I’m tired of waking up sad and crying myself to sleep. I just don’t know what else to do. I want to be happy again. Maybe I’ll at least wait til after nov 3 so my Biden vote counts.

I’m only writing this bc I know not a single soul will see it but I am beyond close to killing myself. I’m so sick and tired of being berated for absolutely no reason, my father screams at me and I’m terrified of him bc he always did that to me growing up, my grandmas not much better and I constantly live in fear that someone will get physical with me. If something comes up I never get to tell my side. No one would miss me, I’ve never made anyone’s life better, I just fuck everything up to the point of no return so I want to just get out of everyone’s hair. I’m so exhausted. I just want to die