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@worthlier
You eat your goddamn Cheerios and bicker with the bitch in your head who keeps telling you you’re fat and weak: Shut up, you say, I’m busy, leave me alone. When she leaves you alone, there’s a silence and a solitude that will take some getting used to. You will miss her sometimes. Bear in mind she’s trying to kill you. Bear in mind you have a life to live.
Marya Hornbacher, Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia (via octoberamethyst)
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from a gardener & a psychologist
1. people associate depression with abjection, a kind of mental shapelessness. in truth, at its most dysphoric, depression is seismic, surprisingly precise in its violence.
2. someone on the outside of this shattering can’t perceive the full velocity of its push. what is accessible to them is mostly an aftermath.
3. it is often not about the presence of sadness as much as it is the inability to enter the psychological/emotional spectra without guilt.
4. that is what goes unspoken in therapy : guilt. depression is powered by some infinite fount of guilt around and about basics of sustenance.
5. during the worst of my phases, i feel guilty about eating, speaking, sleeping, staying awake. everything. my whole presence disintegrates.
6. you are trying - flailing, failing - to establish contact with something inside of you that is disembodied, essential and impervious.
7. you can’t commit to which time you can best belong to while you are completely drowning in the vastness of hours. the past reoccurs, seems too colossal to surmount. the future is a prolonged blur. a depressive state erases the possibility of any present tense.
8. following up on what gayatri c. spivak says - at the bottom is the right to refuse. if we were to consider that any autonomy is indirectly linked to choose through refusal of certain states, actions, ideas then depression takes hostage this ability to refuse. (also : inter-generational trauma, choice v/s will, determinism etc)
9. you can’t get out of the bed, out of the relentless need for dark, withered spaces because the exteriority becomes a wide mirror for translating the feint of learned helplessness, the inward slant of “ i shouldn’t be here or anywhere else.” my head in the dark drowning reinvents the world outside as an inevitable flood.
10. thus : presence, bodywork, introduction to fresher energies, voices, touch, hands, offerings of other, better mirrors.
if ur feeling desperately sad this summer, wait until it gets dark and half quiet and then open a window. cool air and passing cars are gonna heal ur heart. i promise
examine your intentions. don’t move, why are you here? is your anger self righteous or misdirected? are you holding yourself accountable? what are the consequences of your actions? are your feelings facts, are they a tool for you to win an argument? are your actions consistent with the love you say you have for another? what does love mean to you? is your language mindful of another’s illnesses and traumas? do you respect another’s autonomy and critical thinking skills? are your emotions enriching this conversation or damaging it?
Everyone is so afraid to ‘feel’ these days. Everyone is so afriad to be consumed by and in love with their emotions. But you should be in love with your emotions, even if it isn’t love that you’re feeling. Feel, feel, feel. Let yourself hurt, let yourself love and don’t ignore the pain. Feel it in every inch of your being, let it kill you and I promise when you do you’ll never have felt more alive.
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GLITTER KNOWS NO GENDER
my diary entry from July 23, 1998
you’re not too sensitive. you’re not overreacting. if it hurts you, it hurts you
friendly reminder that just because your body isn’t as thin as it used to be doesn’t mean your body is wrong
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you’re totally & completely worthy of love at your most fucked up parts of your life. you don’t have to “fix yourself” or reach a certain point of growth to be loved & to love.
In case no one’s told you lately:
You’re not a burden.
It’s okay to be struggling.
It’s okay to tell people you’re struggling.
Please tell people you’re struggling.
Don’t suffer in silence. Tell someone. Get help.
It’s okay to need help.
Please get yourself help.
You’re not the exception to recovery.
The world is more beautiful because you’re in it.
You’re worth it.
You’re a good person.
Thank you for existing.
You’re beautiful.
You’re not the exception to recovery.
Please stay alive.
If you’re looking for a sign not to kill yourself, this is it.
Please, stay alive.
People love you.
I love you.
Don’t give up.
You’re not the exception to recovery.
You’re not the exception to recovery.
stop waiting on men to validate you. you’re pretty. you’re smart. you’re interesting. you’re worth time & effort. you deserve to be loved. you need to know these things and truly believe them. don’t wait on some man to come along and tell you.
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t always mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead …………………………………………………. and you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have a way of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure you really are strong you really do have worth and you learn and you learn with every goodbye, you learn…
Veronica A. Shoffstall, After A While (via thequotejournals)
Trace your stretch marks with love instead of trepidation. Feel the fullness of your curves with admiration instead of revulsion. Your body is your home. Decorate it. Care for it. Inhabit it.
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no offence but you’re beautiful
