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i’m so relieved to be home lmao

i can’t wait to see my housemates it’s been such a week

i’ve never seen so many blue eyed people in one place as on this flight to frankfurt it was actually scary

i made some awesome friends in my peer group but this conference was so stupid. jewish studies academics will see an antizionist scholar and get like comically hostile. obviously. i can handle the heat regardless but my supervisor was there and all her mates were raising their voices and speaking over me, insisting i define what certain political concepts mean to my participants when i haven’t done my fieldwork yet, whispering to each other and laughing while i was talking, calling my ethnographic vignette a “one-hit wonder” (again—i’m like 18 months out from starting my fieldwork). like. lol and lmao. other people’s supervisors stepped in when the critique got obtuse and not constructive. mine just sat back and didn’t say a word

i don’t think academics deserve rights

just got absolutely hazed presenting my phd proposal at this workshop. “how are you going to make sure this isn’t a one-hit-wonder” girl what lmfao

all roads lead back to having a psychotic episode in spain. i’m on that al andalus shit

i value my privacy and being like an onion but i refuse any and all shame around being schizophrenic. like it’s the principle of the thing

unfortunately having another psychotic episode triggered by good sex is the funniest possible thing that could be happening to me rn #sufferingfromsuccess #incelsummer

schizoposting will continue until my meds get upped or something