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all roads lead back to having a psychotic episode in spain. i’m on that al andalus shit

braved the bookshop yesterday morning and bought the last, beat-up, discounted copy of martyr! they had. my ex was going to lend me his the morning he broke up with me. i went to buy a really sexy pair of bikini bottoms i saw in an op shop window after and the shopkeeper asked me what book i’d just bought because i was carrying it in a paper bag. when i told them why i bought it they were like, “you have to take matters into your own hands.” i don’t want to be scared of a book. it’s the first time i’m reading for fun (without feeling pressured) in years and it’s actually really good. i’m like seven chapters in. i also wrote a bit over a thousand words on the plane, just for me. i’m fighting this psychotic break so hard. if i can keep reading and writing through it i’ll be okay for sure

i value my privacy and being like an onion but i refuse any and all shame around being schizophrenic. like it’s the principle of the thing

unfortunately having another psychotic episode triggered by good sex is the funniest possible thing that could be happening to me rn #sufferingfromsuccess #incelsummer

schizoposting will continue until my meds get upped or something

not now daddy, kitten’s having visions again

how is anyone watching the vampire lestat pls help

hearing more and more that something is very wrong with me