Hastune Miku’s Plug

So I click on it… I keep reading. And it starts with a WARNING

“RESTRICTION

The material contained herein is intended for the personal and private use only by those who have completed the first Session of the Gateway Program. The attempted application by others may result in undesirable and uncontrolled effects detrimental to any such unauthorized user.”

And somehow my tired brain skimmed that without thinking oh that Gateway Program name sounds familiar to me-

So I keep reading and turns out one of googles top suggestions happened to be a declassified CIA document on said pre mentioned Gateway Program and now my ass is deep diving this shit.

Housemate asked what I was up to and I said “Eating cereal and looking over three tabs of declassified CIA documents-” unbeknownst to the fact that our new maintenance guy was right outside the room until I heard him blurt out a laugh.

I haven’t been able to get back into art for the life of me, I’ve got commissions just sitting there for the most kind patient clients waiting for me to get back on my feet and supporting me but I haven’t been able to touch them in so long-

Recently I came to the realization that in having not picked up a pencil or anything and drawn or doodles in so long that I had pretty much almost forgotten the process and would never get far without growing overwhelmed that I wasn’t able to pump out up to 3 commissions a day like I had back in high school.

I used to think “yeah sure I was taking on that much work to keep a roof over my head but it was fun I like art” but little did I know how much burn out and dread that would lead to.

Regardless I would like to try and maybe post some lil sketches or something here maybe even if people want to request silly stuff of characters they like I’ll try!! And I’m sorry if I can’t get to it all or don’t post it all… I’ll do my best especially if it means working towards feeling that I can express myself through art again.

Why aren’t trains more common? Is it capitalism? Is it the fact that my brain rationalized that more people may die in a train crash than a car crash?

Maybe we need to revision streets and rethink subways without allowing officials to continue to shove the homeless underground quite literally burying us-