WORMMOTHER WRITES

I know you don't love me anymore

And that's fine 

Seriously it's cool

I just want my fucking cat back

When your ex breaks up with you and steals your cat your first thought is

Where did my cat go?

The rest of you kind of saw it coming

Not the cat thing

The whole your ex not loving you thing

See that makes sense

It feels like a inevitability

Like the 191 to manhattan at 1pm showing up at 115

These things just happen

Your ex is passionless aloof and ultimately no longer interested

You've been slowly losing your mind in this house

Your ex can't cure loneliness much like they can't cure your mental state

Nor do they care

Nor does it matter

As nihilistic as it sounds this was all expected

You took the news calmly 

Until they said there taking your cat

Your fucking cat

The one you got for your bipolar mindstate

For your loneliness

To heal from your other more abusive ex

But fuck all that its your cat

And your crazy

Like fuck we all know your crazy

But you can take care of your own cat

To assume you can't is kinda fucked

And you'll prove your ex wrong 

Yeah you'll get your cat back and then show them you can take care of your own fucking cat

As soon as you get out of this mental institution 

Fuck

They broke up with you while your in the mental home

Geezuz

This really feels inevitable

Breakups are a lot like the bus

You can see them coming

Unless they steal your cat

I know I just wanna kiss you while I have you wrapped up like a gift I've given to myself

I bind you as you tie me down

Emotional binds as I tighten the rope

Bend to your wrist and no space loosen

Yet you break your binds reach for my tit

Peirce into my spine and into my heart

Take into my heart and you bind me

You tie me down with these emotional binds

And I fall in it to quickly

 god do I fall so fast

I fall into that thing

 that feeling

 you know that feeling 

you know that word

 god I can't say it 

but I'm falling and its bottomless 

And I'm the dom but baby

Hunny

Slave

Idiot

Beautiful

Sydney

As you tie me down

I'm falling for you

And I don't want it to stop 

I wanna keep falling 

Deeper and deeper 

Into this pit till all I see is black

And all I feel is this word

God this word 

You know this word but I can't say it

Goddammit I want to but I can't fuckin say it

I am your girlfriend

Your mistress

Your goddess

Your lua

You are my maid

My sub

My girlfriend

My cat girl

And I want you to take my hand

I want you to feel me pinning you down

Hitting the wall

And binding you

Physical ties for these physical bonds

So I can take you through these 

emotional ties to these emotional bonds

And make you fall with me

Deeper and deeper

Into the wordless pit

Into the emotional binds

Into the word

Deep into the word

Fuck the audience

I'm not gonna say it

Sydney

Your gorgeous