wolfwood is my girlfriend

i have so many fragmented thoughts about blade runner 2049. questions. musings. i can't stop thinking about that scene of k and joi in the rain. she says "i'm so happy when i'm with you" and he replies "you don't have to say that." he buys an ai girlfriend who can be Whatever You Want Her To Be! and he just gets the store model. doesn't bother to change her appearance. she's just a thing, but he's also just a thing. he doesn't like real girls. he doesn't want to be human. not until he thinks he really might be. "to be born is to have a soul" he says, meaning he doesn't think he has a soul, and he doesn't think joi has one either, and he's fine with that. he puts her in an emanator so she can go wherever she wants. that's what he says. not "you can always be with me" (she is artificial intelligence programmed to be into him!!!) but "you can go anywhere you want". he can't set her free but he can give her the illusion of freedom, which is the same thing he has. an object masquerading as a person. "i'm so happy when i'm with you" says the computer program. "you don't have to say that" says the soulless replicant because he knows she can't feel happy, he knows she's programmed to say that, he didn't change any of her settings, it wasn't about that. he didn't buy a lover. didn't even buy a friend. just bought a program pretending to be a person. and then gave her the chance to experience the world like a person does. she isn't one. neither is he. but that's the point.

"being a human is so boring why can't I be one of the COOL animals" okay hey. I hear you. but I actually really super love being an omnivorous persistence hunting primate with a stomach capable of dissolving many literal poisons and the ability to smell geosmin (released in the soil after it rains) at five parts per trillion. I super enjoy being a bipedal terrifyingly agile mammal with some of the most efficient sweat glands in the animal kingdom. I find a lot of joy in being an endotherm with mimicry abilities that rival most other animals with vocal chords. it's sick as hell I'm having a lot of fun

ok northies this is it. these last five days to the solstice are a motherfucker. everything feels dark and hopeless because the sun's fucked off. but you MUST. i cannot stress enough you MUST hang on until the 21st. the light will come back

i feel. like on a fundamental level. i do not understand x reader fic. i am not exactly opposed to it because let a thousand blossoms bloom etc. but like. i genuinely don’t get it. it seems like the exact opposite of how i engage with fiction. like the whole point is that i’m not in there. i don’t wanna be in there. if i’m in there it’s going to be very stressful.

nosferatu? no. tuferatu. no es mi problema.

may be a hot take but i think the fact minors can access 18+ content by just clicking a button that says 'yes im totally over 18 trust me' is like. totally fine tbh. its a non-issue. i dont care if curious teenagers are looking at porn. they've been doing that for as long as porn has existed. id rather teens explore their sexuality through images on the internet than rush into real life experiences when they're not ready for it yknow. the UK is trying to put stricter age verification in place (which in turn is becoming an online privacy nightmare) and like. for what. who is it helping. why is this a problem.