Lana

And the russian exam is also a 4/5. But the informatics and mathematics exams are 3/5(( I was one point short of a 1 in mathematics!!

i will either lose the weight or my mind

i hate being overstimulated, i hate when there’s so much noise around me, when it’s all just too much. i hate anything that brings me close to other humans, having people talk to me touch me or try to force a connection with me, i can't stand the sound of screams even from far away, i hate when people follow me or try to talk to me while i’m lost in my music just trying to daydream. my thoughts start to drift away and aaa it feels so good to finally leave into another world for a while, they’re the only places where it doesn't hurt, the only places that make sense to me. why does someone always have to come and ruin everything? it deeply stresses me out every time i'm interrupted, every time i'm stuck somewhere that stops me from escaping, it’s like i’m being suffocated, i need my little worlds to breathe, i need to be able to dream exactly how i want to but i'm not even allowed to do that anymore, it's all i have left