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already, let’s start with the evening routine!!!

what would my ideal evenings look like ??

I would like to eat every evening at roughly the same time. it’s okay if it’s not exactly the same hour every time, if there’s a 30 min or even an hour difference sometimes because something comes up, that’s fine, but at least within the same time slot :^) i’d also like to eat healthier things, because right now I’m eating a bit of whatever, like pizzas, burgers, fries and that’s not exactly healthy.. It’s nice to treat yourself from time to time but if that’s all I eat, it’s not great

then every evening i’d like to walk bolt for a good thirty min minimum so he can really get some exercise before bed and let him run and play a bit. and for me it’ll feel good to get some fresh air ^-^ once i’ve walked him and brought him back home, i’d like to take a little time for myself to go outside again in front of the house and look at the stars and the moon. i find it such a cute moment to just stand there alone looking at the moon and the stars. It’s so calming and I love the atmosphere of the night. so i’d go observe the stars a little. Ofc if i’m too tired some evenings I won’t do it and I’ll just go to bed earlier, but every evening except when i’m exhausted, i’d like to spend that time walking and looking at the sky and the moon. i just think it’s such a nice little moment

then the basic stuff. i’d take my shower every evening, brush my teeth and do my skincare. Rn i don’t have any products for skincare because I don’t have much money but I don’t need thirty products anyway. i’d just do the minimum, rinse my face with cold water (I think that’s better for the skin), put on at least some moisturiser and a little something on my lips to hydrate them!! and also take care of my hair, brush it before sleeping and put a little oil in it. all of this sounds so normal and simple but for me it’s a lot, because with my depression I was so out of rhythm... my days just didn’t look like anything. i did these things but at random times, i had no structure. so it’s been years since i last brushed my hair before bed or when I wake up. i only brush it when I notice it’s tangled. i’d like to start taking better care of my hair, so after my shower at least detangle it and put it in a protective style so it doesn’t get knots while I sleep :c

i’d also like every evening before going to bed to tidy my room a little so I can fall asleep in a clean space because I think we sleep better when our environment is clean and in general we feel better when our surroundings are clean

and i’d like to finally put my phone in the kitchen so i don’t use it at night. i’ve been saying i wanted to do that for a while, but i’ve been so stubborn that i still haven’t done it. so starting tonight i’m going to try for real, and this time I really will

that’s roughly what I want to start doing in the evenings

now for the daytime

i’d like to wake up quite early. Ideally I’d love to wake up very early, around 4 or 5 in the morning, because I adore the atmosphere when it’s that in-between time between night and morning, very late at night / very early in the morning. i love the feeling of the night, I love the very early morning, and especially the sky has such beautiful colours, and when everyone is still asleep and you’re alone, it feels so peaceful.. i just love it.. but i can’t be too hard on myself because it’s been years of all nighters and waking up at random times. if i force myself to get up at 4 a.m straight away it’s going to be difficult. so i’d like to wake up reasonably early, around 7 or 8, 9 at the latest, maybe 10 at the absolute latest and if i can, if it’s possible, wake up super early. and as soon as i get up, go for another little walk with Bolt, at least 30 min again

then when i come back, have breakfast. i’d also like to eat healthier things for breakfast, because right now i’m eating whatever, cereal and things like that.. i’d like more fruit, more healthy stuff :)

after breakfast, do shower, brush my teeth, put on moisturiser, wash my face, brush my hair… i’d also like to put on a tiny bit of makeup sometimes, just a little blush or a bit of lipstick or a little mascara.. and put on perfume, because it’s been years since I’ve really done that.. i wouldn’t do it every day, but sometimes, just to feel a bit better

during all of this i’d also like to not touch my phone or only very rarely.. really only after i’ve walked bolt, eaten and finished getting ready would I allow myself to look at my phone

i’d also like to try to tidy a little at home every day so that it always looks reasonably clean, so i feel better etc..

and i want to try to always find something to do during the day, in the afternoon and so on, because i hate not knowing what to do, feeling useless, doing nothing, just going round in circles and staying in bed scrolling.. So yepp, that’s a bit what my evenings and days would look like from now on :c

so everything I’ve just said, i’d like to start doing from now

now, roughly the things i’d like to do later, the things i’d like to buy, lots of things i’d like to do, my goals etc..

first, around mid-september, roughly in the middle of the month, i’ll start my driving lessons!! that will already fill my days a bit, i’ll have something to do on the days i have lessons, so my days will be a little more structured :)

also, bolt is now enrolled in dog training classes. right now it’s the holidays, i only managed to do two sessions, saturday and wednesday, and during august it’s closed because of the holidays, but it starts again in september. so on top of my driving lessons, on wednesdays and saturdays (if everything goes well) i’ll go with bolt to his education classes. i think it’s important because there are other dogs there so he can get used to them and it also gets me out and seeing people. even though I’m very shy, i still need a minimum of social contact

already having these things as new activities makes me really happy. one goal would be to be diligent with my driving lessons, really focus during the lessons and at home revise, look for things that can help me revise so i can really go all in for my licence because i want it so much, i’m so motivated. same for the dog training classes, stay focused etc..

everything i’m saying is really random, there’s no particular order. i just say things as i think of them. and right now i’m thinking about things i’d like to buy and so on in the future

first, as you probably already know because I’ve talked about it a lot, many of my clothes were unfairly thrown in the trash, along with my jewellery and everything.. so little by little i’d like to rebuild my wardrobe. i have lots of inspiration for things I’d like but they’re often hard to find and quite expensive... little by little, i’d rather wait and make sure i get things i really like rather than buying lots of things I might not like later.. so yes, i’d like to start rebuilding a small wardrobe :c

i’d also like to buy a lot of jewellery because i find it really changes an outfit and I just really love jewellery in general. i’ve already started a small jewellery collection. i’ve already shown you the chokers with the little fairy. and then i bought other necklaces. for now i’ve only bought necklaces, i haven’t bought other types of jewellery yet. i’ll show them to you. i’ve only shown you two i think, but i bought two more. anyway, i’d like to buy a lot of jewellery. i’ll show you a bit of the style I like another time

i’d also like to buy more makeup because another thing i’d like to do is learn how to do my makeup better and try different looks. i know the basics, foundation, blush, etc.. but i don’t know how to do eye makeup, eyeshadows, liner, and so on.. i’d really like to learn because there are so many original and creative makeup looks I loveee, especially with glitter ^-^ so i’d like to learn how to do them and therefore buy more makeup to try more products. Yup !! i’d like to buy clothes, a few dresses, jewellery, makeup, lots of glitter, lots and lots of glitter 🪄🪄

and also, i’d like to start decorating my room because it’s been a long time since I’ve decorated it and it’s just stayed like this.. i’ve never really had the chance. when i have money, i’d first like to repaint my room. i don’t know yet, either pale pink or maybe purple but I’m still hesitating.. i’d like to add pretty colours and lots of glitter and colourful things

i've always felt that the moon is a woman, she is very calm, very introverted, a bit shy and cautious, she hides a lot but she's also very soft and a good listener. i've always felt deeply connected to the moon. I think we have a lot in common her and i

as for the sun, I think he's a boy and he's rather extroverted, very “sunny” he loves people, he loves social contact and he's very kind, very generous and he is funny :c

i think that with the moon and the sun, some people connect more with one, or the other, or a mix of both.. personally, I think I'm deeply connected to the moon

for example, the moon is introverted, as I said, and she hides a lot.. her sort of power, in a way, is that she has a healing power. like, when people are hurting or sad, if they talk to the moon, confide in her, she listens to them and kind of heals them

and the sun, on the other hand, has the power to make people happy. it's like a magical power that makes people smile. the sun is the one who brings joy, while the moon is the one who heals, protects, and soothes sorrows