with love & courage

The name's Beccy est 1995. I live in the UK with my partner, our two kids, one doggo and one cat.

I refer to my eldest as Bub (as he was originally called Bubba when I was pregnant with him) and my youngest is Cub. This is partly because it rhymes with Bub, but also because he's a ferocious little lion cub. There's a six year age gap between them, but they're both at home with me 24/7 because I had to home educate Bub due to his SEMH needs.

I'm currently on Mounjaro as I have been trying and failing to lose weight for years. I'm not exactly sure what will happen when it's time to stop but for now, the food noise and the blood sugars are regulated which is helping so much! I have only been on it two, nearly three weeks so far, so it's early days. I'll be updating about that too! I'm currently a UK size 20 and I weigh just over 15 stone/97-100kg (it bounces about on a daily basis), and I basically don't want to be.

You'll often find me tagging things under "mental health" and that's because I have complex ptsd, which is so so so much better than it used to be, but it's still there. I've had a lot of therapy and I am on sertraline so that helps a bunch! I also suspect I have undiagnosed autism as all the research I did for Bub actually pointed at me as well, but since the cptsd and autism symptoms overlap a bit I doubt I will ever find out.. but anyway.. I am pretty sure I do it but I gaslight myself out of getting assessed (not that it would happen any time soon).

I think that's it :) I like to make new friends on here, and I do have side blogs, but I am a scatterbrained individual so expect inconsistency always 🌼🌿

- // 20:15, Wednesday 15th April 2026

P.s. here's Willow the sausage & Bella the catto

It's my honourary nephews' 3rd birthday and we'll be going to see him. Seems a very warm day, so I'm sure the bus journeys will need to take today will be a joyous experience. It'll be worth it anyway, I'm excited to see my friend & her children. Bub is a year older than her daughter, and Cub is a year younger than her son so they (for the most part) play nicely together. :)

It's also Wednesday which means I've weighed myself & I've found I'm 98.3kg, which is 14 stone, or.... 196lbs. That's 24lbs I've lost so far. But the best difference isn't in the numbers, it's in my increased mobility. Simple things like putting on my shoes and bending down to get things are becoming easier. My clothes are getting baggy but I'm not sure I've quite gone down to the size below. I'm sort of making do with what I have until I can go try things on in a store because I just dont know and clothing sizes are so finicky.

Oh shit. I've just realised I've left clean piles of clothes all over Cub's bedroom floor. 🙃

-but anyways, this afternoon, home education went surprisingly well. I occupied Cub with his own learning activities whilst guiding Bub through his, which is something I haven't done before but I felt like he needed to feel included. I even gave him his own fake spelling list to scribble on and scribble it out he did 😌👍. Honestly though Bub did really well with his learning today and it's always a relief when he's in a can do mood.

I've ordered some history books from Vinted for Bub. He had a lot of fact books that he loves, so hopefully he will feel curious about these books too. He definitely prefers non-fiction over fiction when it comes to books.