Egg

One time I was watching TV with my mom and she was trying to get the remote off my lap and she basically went digging around in my crotch in such a way where she touched some stuff, probably by accident, but also I feel like I am exaggerating this so as to try and make it seem serious enough to get upset about. And then she just did not acknowledge it. And you'd think I'd be trying to pin-point this as the origin of some deeply-buried childhood trauma, but actually this happened when I was 19 or 20 and had already felt our relationship was fucked up for a few years and was constantly on edge and prone to reading into things.

Just discovered a semi-popular blogger has me blocked... what did I do? Am I important...?

I feel lost in some kind of wet desert

I should Evil Fetishizer post more so my newer mutuals know what I'm all about but I have been pretty anhedonic for a while and it sucks.

Vaguely mad to see a davekat fic about Dave being a knight who takes on a dragon who is Karkat. Wow, imagine if there had ever actually been a character in Homestuck associated with dragons you could use for your medieval AUs. That would be crazy.

People are always saying how Deltarune is actually Homestuck or it's actually one of the Mother games, but they are neglecting to mention how much it's Cucumber Quest.

Had some kinda dysphoria dream about how low my voice is and how I can't sing as well as I used to. Which is true :/

I wanna watch some Deltarune theory videos but I have never seen one that seriously talks about the story's sexual assault themes, which has biased me towards believing that the majority of youtubers are neither capable of doing close reading at all nor willing to talk about anything potentially controversial that they'd notice if they could in fact read. I at least sometimes appreciate the ones who go and look for clues about things in the code as that's something I wouldn't really do myself. But that is more a case of them pulling out bits of information and being like "well this could mean something," rather than writing what amounts to a fanfic that doesn't make sense. Not that I think my own previous post was much better than that. But at least I acknowledged the incest implications.