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I'm always seeing genderfluid people who say they're gay no matter who they date; I'd like to meet someone who's straight every time.

I miss 2020 Utena twitter, my first real introduction to the wider molested community. I dunno if current fans understand it in quite the same way I was was seeing in that specific group back then, or if it's just that I've stopped paying attention.

There's a random assortment of blogs I don't follow that I check up on most days after I have exhausted my feed here. Usually either don't follow them because they post way too much and I'm not quite interested enough in getting to know them that I'd tolerate that pushing people I actually care about out of my feed, or it's that they have some interesting perspectives but also I disagree with them about too many things. And with the latter it's like, why do I keep doing this to myself. I find myself getting annoyed at all the bad posts I'm seeing but the vast majority of them that I see are not because of anyone I follow it's literally just my compulasion to make myself slightly annoyed. I'm like, "why is everyone always talking about this?" as if it's not my fault I'm always seeing it and it would probably seem like much less popular a topic if I wasn't doing this. Like I make broud conclusions about the site culture in my head but also I am biasing my own perspective by looking at these places that might have less reach than I actually think they do because I often randomly choose a new blog to check up on based on one of the current blogs reblogging it a lot. Trapping myself. All this to allegedly see more memes after I have exhausted the memes from the people I respect. I do this on twitter too, but I gotta say that the random inconsquential people I "stalk" on tumblr usually wind up frustrating me more. Unless it's about Homestuck. People are generally worse at talking about Homestuck on twitter. But usually when I'm doing this meaningless scrolling it's not even Homestuck focused, it's just generalities. How do I stop myself from doing this. I could be doing literally anything else.

Thought I was recovering from a week of what at this point seems to be covid, but then I went on a five minute walk and the coughing began again >:(

Recently I have been told that not being a gamer makes me more attractive.

You know actually I don't think she'd name herself June Egbert because her birthday isn't even in June and that seems like the sort of arbitrary personal rule she'd still cling to. And I guess arguably if she's ever able to embrace freedom from societal constraints enough to actually transition, that sort of nitpicky thing wouldn't matter to her so much anymore. But at the same time, becoming radical enough to transition does not necessarily require or imply a huge shift in personality and all other priorities; Homestuck characters are always essentially the same character. So have you considered April?

Everyone who says "larp" instead of "poser" is a poser.

We should make karezi more Freudian. Karkat was the first person to hold all his friends since he made them, but unlike everyone else who got sent to a lusus to imprint on, Terezi probably just got dropped near the dragon egg and didn't have physical contact with anyone for sweeps. Also she might have bit him and tasted his blood back then.

Trying to more seriously entertain the notion of davekat again but every time I think about an interesting parallel between them I just think about how narratively that parallel tells you more interesting things about Terezi's relationship priorities than it says anything interesting about those two dating in her absence. Like you can be like "Oh they are both knights and that's something" (I unironically say this about Rose and Terezi being seers), and they're both kind of over-emotive sarcastic douchebags (Dave is less chill than you think). But in that way it just feels like trying to push the north ends of two magnets together. They don't feel right. But I think they fact I am thinking about it from this angle at all is just that I annoyed myself by looking at twitter again, where people act like they are super symbolically destined for each other, which is a level above my suspension of disbelief. I can understand them working alright together, but even the narrative frames it as something more of circumstance than grand design. Johnkat's the "destined to meet, similar people from different worlds" one, if anything.