supēsu wa kūruda

I wanted to come out here and make this serious text post, because there are a few things I want to talk about. For starters, I don’t know if this message will be triggering for people, but I’ll be talking about some dark stuff, such as suicide and loss in general. So, fair warning. Last night, someone in the JSE community had posted that they were going to commit suicide. Despite my attempts to help and get through to them, their blog is no longer active. I hope, more than anything in the world, that he is still here with us right now.

Someone very close to me recently lost her mom, unexpectedly, to lung cancer. She was diagnosed only five days before she passed. My heart aches for her, and I know that she is going through unimaginable grief.

My cousin, and her two young kids, were completely flooded by hurricane Harvey and lost everything. They’ve been displaced from their home, and are really struggling right now to get back on their feet.

Today marks the 8 year “anniversary” of the day that I experienced a house fire, at only fourteen years old, where I lost everything. I spent years struggling with depression because of what happened, and contemplated suicide multiple times.  I wanted to make this post, because I want people to know that everyone is in pain. Everyone hurts and experiences grief to some degree. As someone who has experienced the immense pain that some of you might be feeling, I can tell you that it truly, honestly, without a doubt, does get better. Everything is going to take time, but I believe that each of you is strong enough to overcome the demons you’re facing. If you’re contemplating suicide, please just talk to someone. Anyone. Talk to a loved one. Talk to a professional. Talk to me. Just please don’t carry the burden alone. It might take the strength of many to overcome whatever weight you’re struggling with, but there are people here to help. Please know that you’re not alone. I speak from experience - it gets better. 

You all matter. Each and every single one of you. Please stay here with us.

How I actually look…

He got an upgrade.

So many of them became depressed and distraught because they were trained to find live bodies, and when they kept finding remains, their handlers and other rescue workers began to hide in the wreckage so the dogs could do live finds. 

I broke down in tears reading this….

She is a Good Dog

She is napping in Doggy Heaven right now where there are many nice things to eat and toys and warm hugs <3

So Jack’s mentioned on one of his social media accounts that he’s finished his first drumming cover of a song and that’s all good and we’re all happy he’s gotten back into something he loves. However, like most of the community, I over-examined and, as a result of this, I think I might have an idea as to what could go down on October the 31st, the 1 year anniversary of when Antisepticeye ‘killed’ Jack.

Take a look at this: (whited out the comments btw)

This is the most recent activity on Jacksepticeye’s Instagram as of the 27th of August. You can see that the caption refers back to what I said above about the drum cover and in the picture you can see the drumsticks in Jack’s hand and what looks to be a crash cymbal. Just an ordinary picture of our favourite green bean.

Until you take a look at the corner of his mouth. Some of the Instagram comments say that maybe he hit himself playing the drums but it seems to be that he’s cut his lip on something, judging by the red, angry skin. To me, it looks as if it has only stopped bleeding a couple hours ago and guess which Septic Side has a love of drawing blood?

Our favourite psycho fluffball:

Antisepticeye.

Also, for those of you who think that maybe Schneeplestein is the one that loves the idea of drawing blood, I just don’t think that’s right. After all, we know that Anti tried to make Schneeple hang himself and after the doctor fails to save the in-game Jack, the screen glitches to Anti’s turn in the spotlight. There is no direct evidence we’ve seen which suggests that Schneeplestein survived the encounter with the Septic Virus (or whatever name is being thrown around for it) which means that, judging by what happened in the video, we can best assume that the doctor that tried to be a surgeon is dead.

Something that set of warning bells was Jack’s shirt in the Instagram post. The shirt in the activity is a black, round neck design, which I’m more than sure is either Anti’s signature shirt or one of five or so shirts that Jack owns.

Another thing that rose red flags in my head was Jack’s facial expression. I don’t know if it’s just me but that just doesn’t seem to be the usual smile Jack wears. When I first saw the smile, my brain screamed I was looking at Anti before it took in any other details of the photo.

One final thing piece of evidence is the hand gesture that Jack’s making. I understand that it’s commonly associated with rock and music but when I put a name to the gesture, I couldn’t help but wonder if Jack making the devil horns symbol was a coincidence or something more.

Looking at all the evidence and the fact that the whole post was meant to be about drumming, I’ve decided to conclude that Jack will not do Pumpkin Carving, breaking his 2 year tradition. Instead, he will play the drums, performing something to do with Halloween that we all most likely know (so it’ll be P!ATD, TØP or FOB knowing the fandom). However, playing the drums is an exhausting thing to do so by the time Jack finishes, he will be too exhausted to save himself from Anti, which by no doubt he will strike since that will be when he is weakest.

Then again I am sick and I could just be saying shit. :|

Please feed the question goblin- it’s very hungry for questions- anything and everything shall do- anon is on for anyone too nervous!

and this picture

THE FEAST + DAY FOUR