What’s It Like?

Just prefacing that I expect this blog to be me screaming into a void. Block if you want. I just want to get my feelings out.

Cried twice yesterday. Once just lying down and once in my car. It sucks because I don’t feel like I can just let go and bawl my eyes out (technically I can with my currently living situation but I feel like I’ll be judged and feel weakness). But to other men out there: don’t fall into the same mindset I did. It’s ok to cry. It’s ok to show feelings. I’m working on it.

It sucks. I wish I could cry sometimes. But being on the spectrum really fucks with it. I think the last time I cried was about 7 years ago. If I could just release these feelings (as silly as the context of them are) I would feel so much better.