Ethan Winters

Happy 4/20 stoner fam 🌿💨

Pool daze! So these photos are bittersweet because I’m hella happy I can finally be able to go out to the pool shirtless HOWEVER I have never been comfortable with me weight. And that is something I’m learning to love and accept, I have been slacking on my gym time lately but I got back tonight and it I must say it feels great! I did a 5k in 15 minuets and some weight work. I am reclaiming my body and learning to love it even when it doesn’t look the way I may want it to right now.

My past self was beautiful and fantastic, I do not hate her. I admire and love her because she knew she wasn’t who I was... she gave up everything so I could breathe and live life the way I truly am. While I was under during my resent top surgery, I spoke with her, and she was beyond proud of who I’d become simply because her smile was never as true as mine. We said good bye and parted ways as I woke up. She’s me but I’m not her, we are one and yet polar opposites. But I don’t hate her though I dare not speake her name... I love her and admire her. I’m just NOT her.

I cried with my mom and my heart light, before and after surgery! Words can not describe my feelings that I went through leading up to, right before, and after but over the next few days I will attempt to explain them. But for now I am on the mend!

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| Raw by Ethan Winters •When she's naked is when I like her best Raw and unfiltered with a mouth like a sailor. Fully clothed yet unbelievably exposed. Like pages of a book I watch the gentle bends of her pages the curve of her spine so undeniably strong. She's fighting a war within her battle wounds long sense healed rip open spilling her truth out like blood. Covering her entirety, I see her pain and it hits like thunder echoing through my bones. I fall. •Deeper still in love with her tear soaked cheeks because I see the strength in every tear. Each meaning as they spill from her. She is exposed to me in ways that clothes could never cover. Her true beauty hiden in her tortured soul. •She embodies life and death in those eyes. Her lungs hold fire instead of oxygen. She is reality realised, my truest love she feeds. •She belongs to the star's, how the God's must miss this gem released upon the earth. She's an angel with the devil's wings. She is honesty torn to pieces by lies and cruelty. •She is pain with a smile. The reason for the tides to change. She is raw in it's most beautiful majesty. Written by Ethan Winters, 2017

|October 4th 2017| I am officially 10 days from 23 y/o and I am a little in shook because this is not how I imagined 23.. and that's a really really good thing! 🌻 In light of my upcoming celebration I want to do s 10 day series on self care, because it is one of the biggest reasons I have made it this far! So this is Day One: What is self-care? Self care is a radical act of self love. Which means it can look different to everyone, like for me self care is coming home early curling up in bed and watching Desperate House Wives. The point is to do something that makes you comfortable and relax, something that you enjoy. It can be hiking, doing your nails, driving, surfing, long boarding, listening to music, and anything beyond or in between or all of the above! It's important to take care yourself because stress or burn out can have physical and mental effects on you if you let it go on for to long. This act is in no way SELFISH! You probably have a million things going on and you're thinking 'I don't have time!' It doesn't have to be long, it could be as simple as getting away from your desk for a few minutes and moving around the room, drink some water, watch a quick YouTube video ANYTHING! Just make a little you time in the middle of all that is going on in your life! And always remember you are absolutely amazing and valid, I believe in you 💕

WELCOME 🌻 My name is Ethan and I want to share my adventure with you so let us begin with some basic facts: 1| I am a trans man 2| I am queer [demisexual & panromantic] 3| My favorite things are the color sea foam green and the character Garnet from Steven Universe 4| I am taken by the most amazing woman [more on her later 😍] 5| I became an activist as a result of my transition [I'll explain that later] 6| I love animals [I have 2 cats and a dog] 7| my hobbies include: Netflix, activism, learning, listening to music, out door activities, and photography 8| I am 22 and a senior psychology major 9| I am almost 2 years on T and scheduled for top surgery in December [yasss 🙌🏾] 10| if you are reading this you are valid, unique, and special to this world 💜 Thank you for joining me as I attempt to change the world, some main topics I will post about are: relationships, activist activities, self care & self love, mental health, school, my animals, my transition, and queer & trans issues. FULL DISCLOSURE: everything I personally post is purely my opinion based off my experiences I do not nor will I ever speak for an ENTIRE group. So sit back, feel free to engage and learn with me ✌🏾