Bluh.

all i wanna do

is make sure you live through

me reading this article:

Day 17: Fave Flying - STARAPTOR

Oscar Wilde had a lesbian niece

Yea

YEA

Her name was Dolly Wilde. She was the daughter of Oscar Wilde’s older brother, and was born about 3 months after he died. She worked as an ambulance driver during WW1 and spent most of her free time banging rich ladies. And guys. GUYS.

SHE

LOOKS

JUST LIKE

HER UNCLE

They both have That Face.

Both were pretty avid smokers. They both appreciated decadence. They both had very similar lovers.

Also, because history is insane, Dolly Wilde once hit on Zelda Fitzgerald, writer and wife of F. Scott Fitzgerald.

Going to a therapist changed my life. I was able to open up and say “I think about suicide almost every day”, and for the first time in my life someone said “You don’t have to live like this.” She didn’t have me hospitalized, she didn’t raise any alarms. She gently asked me if I had a specific plan, and when I said no, she said “We are going to help you get better.” 

YOUR THERAPIST ABSOLUTELY SHOULD NOT HAVE YOU HOSPITALIZED AT THE MERE MENTION OF SUICIDAL IDEATION. 

If you say, “I’m going to kill myself tonight by overdose,” then yes, they are required by law to have you hospitalized. Otherwise it is THEIR JOB to help you process your feelings and find a way to help you function and feel better. 

I cannot be more emphatic about this. Therapists, by and large, are here to help, not to hospitalize. If you have health insurance, contact them today to find out about your mental health coverage. Go to your general care doctor and tell them how you’re feeling so that they can refer you to the right person. If you don’t have health insurance, find a resource for a free/reduced fee clinic near you. Marriage and Family Therapist Interns are a great option, as they often see clients on a sliding fee scale. PLEASE GET HELP.

LISTEN TO ME: YOU CANNOT LEGALLY BE HOSPITALIZED AGAINST YOUR WILL FOR SUICIDAL IDEATION. FEAR OF HOSPITALIZATION SHOULD NOT STOP YOU FROM SEEKING HELP. 

I understand that many people have hospital related trauma, and I understand, and sympathize. Talk to me. Send me a message. I will be happy to find you further information on laws and regulations in your area, referrals to other counseling centers, or even just listen to what you have to say. 

i discussed suicidal ideation with my therapist for years. she had me clarify that it was ideation, not a plan, and hospitalizing me was not even considered.

 I saw and read about one or two cases during my nursing psych classes–somebody who’s trying to walk into traffic because there’s a voice in their head telling them to, somebody who’s trying to attack their own body with a knife because it’s “evil”.  If there’s a situation like that going on, the person would have the opportunity to enter the hospital voluntarily and receive treatment, or if they’re clearly in danger/dangerous and they refuse voluntary treatment, the police can pink slip them and admit them. It is definitely a thing. :O All that said, it is NOT applicable to somebody who’s going to therapy to get help for their suicidal thoughts, doesn’t have a plan, and is obviously willing and ready to try to get their thoughts back in order. Long story short some therapists are good eggs and some therapists are crappy as hell and need to never practice again.

I wouldn’t even say this about my worst enemy