Positively Unhappy

I’ve been doing ‘well’ as in my medication is making me fucking fat as hell but I haven’t tried to kill myself with anything in the last few months.

Last week a ‘friend’ took advantage maybe (I want to place all the blame on me giving the wrong signals maybe or being stupid enough to get drunk around them.)

And now I’m on a heavy downward spiral, I have to deal with the fact I could get pregnant as well as other shut and I have NO ONE In my life I can talk to.

It’s just a complete downward spiral to a downward spiral so fuck I guess.

Of course.

Well they clearly been on a drug binge the last few days, even more shouting, music, visitors than usual etc and this morning after no sleep because my own mental health has been in the dirt, in crisis, alone, overwhelmed and my own failed attempt I actually said out loud I wish they would just fucking die.