The Wanderer

They say that God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers.. But if I'm not fighting anymore and just accepting then will he stop testing me? I can't handle anymore

What if God isn't real.. What if the world was created by a star or a dead star and over millions or eons debris and dust and asteroids hit it and eventually created and formed layers, like the layers of earth. If there's bacteria that can live in extreme climates of heat and cold then what makes bacteria and other forms of life not possible to have thrived? Then it just kept mutating and reforming and eventually created algae or plant like substances and formed the plant life. Water can survive on other planets? So water could've eventually just formed from the condensation of the atmosphere.. Think about it.. There has to be life on other planets because our solar system isn't even visible to our galaxy. So either we're alone in the galaxy or we're not and I can't believe we're alone in this giant place. So did God create a bunch of "lives" and separate us or give some the abilities to be more intelligent by massive amounts of brain capacity? Having the ability to leave us and make a new living environment? I don't believe that. So I believe we just formed from natural mutations and changes.. But I don't know. I'm not a scientist or a theologian but I attended a private/catholic school for 13 years so I'm pretty well versed.. Any counters or comments?

We live in a society that immortalizes death because we loose everyone we care about at a young age and pretend that "going to a better place" or that "they'll live on forever" makes it ok that we loose people so young.. Nothing makes it ok. #alllivesmatter

Basically, I’m a whore who fell in love with a man who could never love me like I love him.

It's been a hard year.. With losing my grandfather and then my puppy, having my grandmother get put in the hospital with the most severe form of anemia I've ever heard of to balancing being away from home at college and my social/personal problems.. But what keeps me grounded is that there's goodness inside everyone and sometimes they allow that to show. Thank you.