♦ Whoa, Rewind?!

I'm in a predicament where I can't use my computer much. No, it's not busted. In fact it works just fine, but here's the problem. I run a community.

I have a lot going on in RL right now and, I'm really not sure if I can keep it going with my RL situation draining resources.

Long story short, my boyfriend is going to be helping my Mom pay for a lot of bills, so we can keep this house. Her husband left her, don't know if he's returning, but because of this, I'm going to be helping my Mom more. A lot more. I won't have time to be here. So I would like to know if anyone can help me in getting a Laptop? We were going to get the $179 one at Walmart on Black Friday, but apparently they ran out of tickets 5 hours before the event started for the laptop.

As you can tell by me opting in for the 179$ one, I just need something for every day tasks. Running websites, organizing events, helping out people, checking my email, etc.

So, maybe this sounds selfish. I hope it doesn't...

But I just need something to keep in touch, and keep working.  

I know a lot of people are going to be mad at me asking for money after what I got at black friday last night, but here's the thing.. Me getting a laptop is more than just for me.

I'll have to keep my computer down for awhile. We don't know what's going to happen.

My Mom needs my research, she needs to get social security disability. 

If you don't want to help the laptop cause, that's fine, if you wouldn't mind helping with the bills cause, that'd be great as well.

The electric bill is past due, and we don't get paid until Dec 5th.

If you can't help with anything, I'm not going to be mad, because this is a request. Just a request for help.

Honestly, I feel completely crappy just asking for any help to be completely honest.

I love you guys. Sorry I have to ask for any help.

Lately Erwin and I have a lot of problems. I mean, a lot. Basically to summarize this part, he won't progress his future without his parents permission. They keep begging him to come home, move here, you won't have to pay rent, working car, blah blah.  They make it seem like it will be perfect there but.. It can't be.

Too many complications!

My Moms health is in horrible condition and she's falling apart and I want to be within a driving distance of her because honestly, in an Emergency, a PLANE is the worst place to put either HER or ME in if one of us has something wrong and end up in the hospital. She wouldn't do well on a plane with all thats wrong with her, and planes are hard enough for me with my claustrophobia and social anxiety. I don't even want to go into detail about what's wrong with my mom.

Another point is, what if Erwin's the only one able to work? Or at least the only one able to pull in a stable paycheck? California demands a high paycheck or two working people to support a home. I can't do that, and I hate that I can't. At least not any time soon. 

I want us to be stable. Attached to our parents emotionally, keep in contact. But I'm willing to move a 4-6 hour drive from my Mom who needs a lot of help, as long as it means progressing our future. He doesn't want a future if it isn't near his family. 

His family can afford to travel, according to him they have money. My family barely affords the rent for the house they live in, and that's with US helping them by paying rent as well. My family can't afford to travel by planes.

Who's in the wrong? Me for being concerned about bills, fees, and ability to get to my Mom or her being able to get to me? Or Him, who just wants to be around his family because it's his comfort zone?

I mean, I love this guy, don't get me wrong. But I see us UNABLE to afford a future in California. Even if I do work. I'd barely get above Minimum wage. Where I want to live is AFFORDABLE by one paycheck, by what HE makes, so if I got a job, even at Minimum wage, we'd be able to get extra stuff and everything. We'd be okay.

We're not fighting right now, actually. That was yesterday. We had our funs times with tears and all. Honestly? I'm at a loss of words on what to say.

I suggested he visit home for 1-3 months and decide what he wants.

He wants that time to see if he can leave his parents for me again.

I want him to stand up for himself if he loves me and try to get his parents to respect him, but I don't think that's what he's going to do, and I'm scared of this. I honestly don't know what I should tell him about what I really think. I'm afraid if I tell him too much he'll shrug it off, or if I don't tell him enough, he won't care enough to come back.

I'm so fucked up right now.

When he's gone, I begged him to send money so I could fix up his car here. That way, if he comes back, we'll have a working car. If he comes back with his car that's at his parents, even better. We'd have TWO working cars. I could drive our current one when I need to get things done! 

I was actually thinking of practicing driving and trying to get my GED while he's gone. I wan't to show him I'm not just a piece of crap.

I mean sure, I'm working on becoming more crafty at home. I want to learn to crochet or knit. I want to expand my bracelet making ability beyond BASIC friendship bracelets, and my beading ability beyond basic animals. I made Erwin an I<3U keychain one year, I don't know where it is now though. Possibly still in California?

I'm trying to make this for Erwin. I keep messing up so I'm trying to slow down and just do a little bit at a time. Afterwards, I plan on making one for me. Once I master f-b knots, since I'm just used to forward... I plan on making him this really cool Mario one that I found. Unless I get into Kandi Bracelets. We'll see.

Point is, I'm absolutely terrified he won't come back. I shouldn't be, should I? I mean, if he loves me he'll come back, and if he doesn't he won't.. Right? I don't know. I'm so messed up right now.

I found a QR code for an Overly Attached Girlfriend Mii. I put it on his 3DS for him to see when he gets home. He's scared of her so, that will be hilarious XD

I don't know who made her, but mad props. LOL.

I was going to write more but my head really hurts from over thinking everything. Can I trust him, does he believe in us, will he defend me to his parents, will he stand up for himself, will he tell the truth... Will he come back?

Greetings,

I apologize for the delay in responding to your ticket and I thank you for reporting the issue you are having in Mabinogi.  I understand that your character lost items.  As a fellow gamer, I can relate to how this must be disappointing to you and I am sorry you have had this experience.

Unfortunately, due to the length of time since these items were lost, I am unable to verify your claim.  While I cannot replace the items, I would still like to provide you with some form of compensation.  As such, I have mailed "Ludacryst" 20 AP and 10 Pon for each item lost.  I am sorry that we could not address your issue sooner.

In regards to the Zorro Card, please know that I have responded to that seperately in ticket# 19000-787632.  

I apologize for the inconvenience this has caused you, and I appreciate your understanding.  Have a great day!

Sincerely, GM Gimbal Nexon America, Inc.

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-------------------------------------------------- As for 60AP and 30Pons to compensate for my complete pure White Trinity set.. It's not exactly equivalent, but I've done replaced that set and everything, so.. Yeah. But at least they tried, you know?  --------------------------------------------------

Greetings,

I apologize for the delay in responding to your ticket and I thank you for reporting the issue you are having in Mabinogi.  I understand that you lost a Zorro Character Card due to the rollback last summer.  As a fellow gamer, I can relate to how this must be disappointing to you and I am sorry you have had this experience.

After examining your account, I was able to verify your claim.  As such, I will be adding a Zorro Character Card to your account.  It should be available within the next 10-15 business days.  If you do not see it after that time, please let me know.

And should you experience any other issues, please do not hesitate to submit another ticket.

Thank you for your patience and understanding.

Sincerely, GM Gimbal Nexon America, Inc.

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-------------------------------------------------- Okay, I'm glad with this part. But, what about the dyes? No, I wasn't reimbursed for them ;;' Oh well, you win some you lose some. --------------------------------------------------