Charismatic

I'm always straying. Always drifting. Always angry. Always hiding. Always faking. Always trying. I'm never praying. Never writing. Never hoping. Never understanding. Never reading. Never trying. I hide behind my smile. Behind money. Behind work. Behind school. Behind church. Behind group. I want to be happy. Be loved. Love. Forget. Forgive. I can only have these things through God. Satan has been working on me for a while. I won't give in. I won't give up. I won't regret. I won't stop. I won't hate. I won't be angry. I won't harbor anger. I will live. I will love. I will laugh. I will smile. I will forgive. I will forget. I will learn. I will teach. I will pray. I will read. I will write. I will be kind. I will be gentle. I will have self control. I WILL BE HAPPY. Because God loves me. God cares. God helps. God listens. God forgets. God forgives. God teaches. God is kind. God is gentle. GOD IS LOVE.

I hate that I can't control some things. Because if I can't control it, I don't know the whole truth. And if I don't know the whole truth then I can't trust it. And if I can't trust it I destroy it. In conclusion, I destroy the things I can't control.

What I did on my birthday: -worked all day -cried all day