Ordinary Mundane

I have been looking for a teacup for over 6 months. I went to a thrift store to find a backpack for school and I found a teacup!!!!

New to me laptop! Had to get one for fall semester, I am going back to school. I got to sticker it up a second ago and im really proud of it.

I bury these thoughts and feelings with the present moment and I am grateful that I did so to an extent. I have learned acceptance, trust, patience, and learning that no matter what I still have myself.

However I have recently come to the realization that I am going to have to learn how to live in the moment and at the same time not to just bury everything under the soil.

I think them and I understand what im trying to say even if i dont say it completely perfect, but everything i go to put it down in a written way I go blank or I cant find the words at all even though I just used some.

Just a boy who loves lip stain and art.

Just a boy who listens to Lana Del

Just a boy who tries and loves hard

Just a man learning from their mistakes

Just a man understanding themselves for once

Just a man holding onto hope

Just a human trying, asking to stay humble and kind. Wondering if they are finally on the right path when they already know the answer. Just a human understanding and finally surrending to the waves of life and getting to see the seeds they planted grow.

We may do bad things and have dark days, but we survive and live through them. Carrying the knowledge we learned from the previous day forward.

Even though some choose to continue on acting like they don't hold such information, its deep within and can activate in any moment. No matter age, all you have to do is accept it.

I have atoned for my sins and my actions based off emotions alone.

I try every day to do better and be better, and I have been trying to better myself for over 8 years.

I am on a path of eliginment even though I am alone on this road I'm no longer lonely.

I don't beg to be seen because I see myself.

I will still fight for certain things, but I surrender almost everything in me.

I'm finding my higher self even through the dark.

I actually met them in the dark, and they lifted me up.

I'm grateful for each day and every breathe even the bad.

The synchronicities and how the divine actually reached me this time when I even begged god to see me.

Living on earth is to remember your conscious.

Sigil your lighter

Make every hit be full of your intentions and energy