come sail away

[chase stokes, cismale, he/him] have you seen TUCKER BUCHANAN lately ? yeah, i heard they're TWENTY-THREE years old and a GOLF INSTRUCTOR now in charleston city. i mean, i don’t know if it’s their VIRGO vibes or that they’re -FLIGHTY and -SPONTANEOUS but also +RESOURCEFUL and +INDEPENDENT but they remind me of COME SAIL AWAY by STYX. here’s to hoping they don’t cause too much trouble around here(mads, 23, she/her, est )

SCOUT: i am nothing if not optimistic. (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ SCOUT: i would love that. SCOUT: that’s ok. people can think what they want- it doesn’t bother me.

maggie: do not compare us tucker. thats the worst thing you can do. you just have to learn from your mistakes. dont make the same mistake with caroline as you did with me

maggie: i know.

maggie: we do indeed

maggie: and i care about you too

maggie: see you tomorrow.

tucker: ok ok i'll stop while im ahead. sorry.

                            beck lets tucker rant until he’s sure he got everything off his chest. his speech doesn’t make him feel any better, but he understands where his friend is coming from. beck practically wrote the master class on ignoring your problems until they go away, if the roles were reversed ….. well he would’ve still told tucker, but he too would’ve pushed everyone else away. in the end, he has to ask himself if this argument is worth throwing their whole friendship away and it’s not. he can’t.  he needs tucker too much, and god knows there’s so much he needs to tell him too, “ geez. way to make a guy feel like a complete tool, ”  he says shifting uncomfortably. he meets tuckers gaze and playfully rolls his eyes, “ come here you tragic meatball, ”  without giving him a chance to protest beck walks over to tucker and throws his arms around him. with his chin hooked over the other’s shoulder he speaks again,  “ i would’ve loved the cozie. maybe even a cool t-shirt. ”  he says tightening his hold on the other man, “ holy shit. i’m gonna be an uncle. ”

Unloading it all felt good, it was freeing even, in its own way. Tucker looked at Beck and tried to read his reaction this was either going to continue to blow up to unforeseen proportions or it was going to do exactly the opposite. It had seem that beck chose the latter. A puff of hair escaped as his diaphragm fell in triumph and a breathy chuckle escaped. God was he glad to hear Beck’s quick wit and feel his eyes soften their gaze upon him. Tucker gladly threw an arm around the other and squeezed. He wouldn’t know what he’d do if he truly lost Beck’s friendship. He meant what he’d said- he was his brother and usually he was the one to be a shoulder to lean on and now he just needed his. “Meatball man, fuck now I’m hungry dawg.” he said giving him another squeeze and pat o the back. “I think that place downtown still does like screen-printing for like twenty bucks wanna go grab some grub and lemme get you a t-shirt made?” he said raising eyebrows in curiosity. “We can even get a beer for that cozie or some shit.” he smiled. “Yeah man.. Uncle Beck. Or are you wanting to be called something else?”

elijah’s smile dropped for a quick second before the other revealed that he was in fact messing around. he sighed in relief. “don’t scare me like that, tucker. i take bodily hygiene very seriously, babe. showers are forever a number one priority,” he hums, giving him a stern yet playful look as he inched closer. he eyes his hand reaching out towards him, rolling his eyes dramatically before he half-assed shakes his hand. “grub? i’m not sure i’m aware what the term grub implies? makes me think of like…slugs and bugs and stuff,” he hums, scrunching up his nose a little. despite his confusion and slight disgust, he follows him nonetheless. “you’re not going to try drown me, are you? i can’t swim so…,”

Tucker waved his worry’s away, “Wouldn’t dream of it. Besides what’s that saying.. the old, save water shower together mantra or what not..” he trailed teasing the other. “I’m a firm believer so.” he shrugged and continued to walk down the path. “Weak sauce do that again like you mean it.” Tucker joked lining up his hand for another handshake grab.” Shoving his hands into his pocket he cocked an eyebrow at Eli. “Nah no. Nope none of that. It’s implying getting something to eat to put it simply. Stopping in his tracks Tucker put his hands up. “Pause.” he walked behind Elijah, “Trust me?” he said. “Now fall backwards into my arms.” he motioned. “I’m serious just drop- I got you. It’s called a trust fall after all.” he laughed in the most Tucker way possibly. “If we’re hanging out gotta trust me man. I’m not going to feed you to sharks or lead you astray. Scouts’ honor.” he crossed his heart before saluting him. 

he tries to make light of it, and she thought it would make her angry, but instead, she does the last thing she thought she would do. she laughs, loudly, her head tipped back. “oh shit, you’re preparing the terrible dad jokes already?” she asks, brow raised. his shock registers with her, and she has to admit that she’d thought every option through. after fighting with her parents over it, and almost losing all her friends, she still couldn’t think to do the worst, she didn’t want to. she listens to him, hearing him out, and there isn’t a thought that she can’t relate to. she’s always had her mothers, and they were the best, but after finding out at eighteen that both her birth parents were still alive, she’d felt the feeling creep in. “i would never do that. put them in the system. i think i love them already, tuck,” she admits the thought that has been in her mind for days, no matter how much she hated it. “when i said i want to keep them…i meant us. i want us to raise them. we’re mature enough for that at least,” she jokes. he lays his arm across her, and she doesn’t feel the urge to recoil, the way she normally does with him. instead, she shifts back, letting him hold her close. she notices his casual use of ‘him’ and she can’t help but smile. “you think we’re having a little boy then?” she asks, turning on her side to look at him. “i mean, i think i can tolerate you. there’s definitely at least a little part of me that likes you, or we wouldn’t be here right now.” she laughs, letting her own arm come to wrap around his. she rolls her eyes, a grin coming to her face. “oh my god, tell me about it. i literally feel like people are looking at me every time i go to get groceries or something.” she nods in response, looking him over. “we fucked up. we made a huge mess and we hurt so many people. but is it really wrong of me to not regret it? i love our little one already…and i can’t regret something that gave us that.” she confesses, letting out a little laugh. “then that’s what we’ll do. we’ll squirrell away in here and shut out the rest of the world for at least eight months.”

“Well, yes.. obviously.” he laughed for what felt like the first time in days. He knew that bringing it up would be tough but he knew that it was a real life situation and just wanted to talk about the tough bits they had to discuss. When she said how she was feeling out loud Tucker couldn’t help but agree. He had begun to feel that way as well. Of course after all the nerves and life altering spiral he went through he felt exactly the same. Maybe it was the lack of love he recieved as a child that made him already want to pour all of his into their baby. But whatever it was, he wasn’t going to deny it. “Me too. I guess that’s what two kids who never truly had it do, right?” he shrugged soflty justifying his actions. “I think we should. We don’t have to be together but at least our child will know their parents and that they’re loved.” he said. If it was something they could agree on it knew it would be this. Tucker chuckled scratching the back of his head, and with a nod looked up at her. “Oh totally. My son is gonna be bad ass too. He’s already gonna have a steezy wardrobe.” he admitted with a cheesy grin. “That’s... well that’s very true..” he said kinda feeling a bit shy which was weird for him. Blue and him had hooked up and seen pretty different sides of each-other during those times, but this new side of them both was a sweet change of pace. Tucker reached around her, his palm resting on her stomach. Soon it would grow and he felt excited at the thought. Wondering about all the new things to come. He also felt relaxed being there almost like he could sleep and the exhaustion of his recent anxiety was set at ease with her. “I don’t regret it. Not when it’s going to give us this. At first maybe yeah.. I did..” he admitted aloud. “I know it sounds shitty but it’s just because it’s a mess of a situation. But I think that i’ve reached a point now where I don’t care what they think.. I’m excited and I’m ready to do this with you. We’re gonna do right by our little accident, and eventually when we leave the house we can be proud of it.” 

mentions: @bluestxrr

tw: pregnancy

mentions: @maggiewtf, @beckhcm, @carofms, @bluestxrr​

tw: none

                         beck wasn’t expecting their fight to be forgotten however the coldness in tucker’s voice feels like a knife to the heart. he opens his mouth to spit out another snarky remark but stops himself when tucker starts speaking,  “ don’t preach to me about that brotherhood bullshit. you’re the one who was sleeping with my neighbor for god knows how long and never told me. then you got her pregnant and shoved your head so far up her ass i’m surprised you can even breathe. ”  he chides. just a week ago this apartment was his safehouse and tucker, the only person he would trust with his life. beck was honest with him, told him secrets he wouldn’t dare speak to anyone else, so why didn’t tucker feel the same way ?  why did he have to find out that his supposed best friend was having a baby in a groupchat full people who didn’t know the first thing about him ?  he’s fearful that once again he found himself in a position of caring for someone more than they care about him and now he’s doing what he doe best; hurt them before they hurt you and leave them before they leave you.  “ i just gotta ask -    when did you stop trusting me ? ”

Tucker placed the beer down onto the counter, his eyes narrowing as the other spoke, he didn’t know if Beck was serious anymore- hell was he even seriously fighting with his best friend right now. Screw the ex/former shit Tucker wasn’t about to throw this down the drain for some miscommunication, crossing the room he got face to face with Beck. “Yeah and since when is it a crime to fuck someone around here?!” he raised his voice. “So what? I didn’t tell you. That was one thing that I didn’t think warranted a story time. It was a few times usually wasted out of my mind.” he breathed heavily. “Holy shit! I didn’t WANT to get Blue pregnant Beck. That’s why I didn’t tell you! I freaked the fuck out. I wanted to run for the hills because that was the last thing I was trying to do!” he exclaimed his voice risen and the vein in his head strained. Calming down he backed away. He didn’t want to fight him, he was just going through a lot right now and if he was being honest not having his best friend by his side made him feel even worse. “I don’t know why the fuck maggie said that. Probably because she’s pissed at me. She was hurt and aired it out there. I was going to tell you man, you gotta believe me. But dude- I quite literally spiraled the night Blue texted me. I’m a fuck up and now I’m going to be a dad? How is that even a thing?” his head fell into his hands. “I never stopped dude.  I didn’t tell you about Blue because in my own fucked up head if I didn’t say anything then it wouldn’t be that serious. And if It wasn’t that serious then that could mean having fun with someone who wasn’t a commitment, who I could escape feelings for Care from- or my past with maggie- I’d felt a little less crazy. I was going to tell you about the baby as soon as I wrapped my head around it. I was even going to get some cool ass drink coozie that said best uncle or some shit.” he laughed-of all things looking up at him. “But that opportunity was stolen from me. I can’t even be mad at maggie because I royally fucked up her friendgroup so..” he shrugged. “I’m sorry Beck. Take it or leave it man but that’s the truth.”

maggie: i get it. but tuck there are some signs that literally tell you.

maggie: i hope you do. because she deserves to be happy

maggie: you need to do what is best for you. people are pissed but it will blow over.

maggie: i need to do whats best for you, you need to do whats best for you

maggie: man you are so confusing

maggie: i dont want to lose you either okay. i'll always be around. i dont leave.

maggie: get your house sorted. it will be better for your mental health.

maggie: i will call you tomorrow afternoon and let you know how im going

maggie: you sort your shit out okay.

tucker: i'm not super oblivious i saw some but hell. I was scared. How could I possible entertain the idea of giving her what i so clearly fucked up with you.

tucker: we both know my track record isn't great and when things get heavy i dip. i just can't help it.

tucker: we gotta do whats best for our own situations i get it..

tucker: okay thank you maggie. i don't deserve any of this from you but thank you. i care about you so much mags.

maggie: man you are so oblivious when a girl shows you her feelings. like what did you think it was.

maggie: yes, she does not to be treated like this. she does not deserve this.

maggie: well im glad you get trying to explain to me where you are at

maggie: as i am to you

maggie: what did you just say? you did not just say that

maggie: you cant have all three tuck. thats not how things go. relationships are between two people. you need to sort your shit out before you move any further.

maggie: you aren't going to lose me for fucks sake but like i said i need time. i need to be able to process this. i haven't even spoken to blue about it.

maggie: i need to get my head on right. this shouldn't fucking bother me but it does and thats what is really messing with me.

maggie: we will. i'll come by maybe tomorrow to see you. depends how i am feeling okay

maggie: i hate this mother fucking feeling

tucker: idk!!! i never want to assume and we were friends lines were easily crossed so it was confusing.

tucker:trust me im trying to make it up to her..

tucker: i said what i said. im not lying about anything anymore we see where that gets me.

tucker: but yeah that's what ive been dealing with im a hot mess mags. i should just be alone for a bit probably.

tucker: i know i can't have my cake and eat it to or whatever but i fuck- i just. it's idk.

tucker: okay good. im really glad u said that. i never want to lose u mags. i mean that. even if you can't be around me i get it but losing u i just.. i can't do that again.

maggie: i don't need all those details. but like i dont even know why you would even do that if you like caroline. i see the way you two look at eachother. the way you act around one another

maggie: did i ever say that tucker. the kid has done nothing wrong and deserves nothing but a great life.

maggie: its just tuck we were in such a good place and now this and its like everything we talked about just meant nothing.

maggie: like im so confused. im trying to work out how i should be feeling. i get it though. my dramas are nothing compared to yours and blues.

maggie: i just wish you didn't get with blue.

maggie: we were best friends tuck, and now i don't even know what we are.

maggie: i hate all this fighting. you know im never good with this type of stuff

tucker: i didn't think care liked me back like that truly. she deserves better than me and this proved it.

tucker: no but i just- thought you should know where i'm coming from.

tucker: fuck mags i know. you think i didn't think about how royally fucked up i made all of this. it's not easy to explain in my own head how i was still in love with my ex, falling for my best friend (not beck that's a diff story ugh) and then sleeping with someone who turns me on but hates me at the same time. its fucked. im fucked you all deserve better and its not even me gaslighting it's me being self aware that i fucking suck.

tucker: i know we were and i want to be still. i know you need time mags. i get that, i do. but its selfish to say but i need you. i can't stand to lose u again but i get if its too much.

"To be honest, she has every right to how she feels. I hate knowing it's upsetting her. I made a mess of things that's for sure so her feelings are valid. So are blue's and care's. We may have been ex's but she was friends with the girls and I think that's where things get complicated so..yeah."

maggie: like it was a shock to you, it was a shock to me. its more about you sleeping with one of my best friends.

maggie: no one plans to fall pregnant at our age.

maggie: no i don't think you do but im sorry but its something that you are going to be now

maggie: i'm sure you both are. its just a fucked situation

maggie: i don't fucking hate you tucker. im just pissed and hurt.

maggie: like how did you expect for me to react

maggie: my best friend and my ex. and a baby

maggie: its tough to come to terms with that

tucker: we were just messing around. do you see how she talks to me? she fuckin hates me I wasn't taking it serious we were just horny sometimes and it would happen then it wouldn't for weeks even months I did't do it to hurt anyone.

tucker:well I should've been more careful because i have no say in what happens here but im not letting my kid go into the system that's for damn sure

tucker: i'm going to step up mags i have to and you know i will even if that means losing people. but i never had a family i can't do that to my kid no matter who the mother is or the situation.

👻↪girlscout

SCOUT: i don’t think you’re public enemy number 1 SCOUT: i love chinese! SCOUT: no gut hating here.

closed starter for @whatthe-tuckb​

“so…did you shower for me or no?” elijah teased as he walked towards him, a large grin appearing across his features as soon as he laid eyes on the boy. he didn’t think that this would actually happen. he was only joking in the group chat when he asked the other out, but he would be lying if he said he wasn’t at all interested. particularly to see what all the hype is about. “look, i wore a nice shirt and all. where are we heading to?”

Tucker saw Elijah heading toward him and pressed against the railing he was shifting his weight on to stand up. “Oh shoot I knew I was forgetting something..” he trailed running a hand through his hair before breaking into a cheeky grin. “Of course man, I’m no caveman.” he chuckled extending his hand for a quick dab of a handshake. “Damn I see that.” he looked at the other’s shirt and gave a nod, “I feel like I personally am now underdressed.” Tucker said grabbing his own shirt and pulling it out. “Well I figured we’d grab some grub near the water since it’s starting to cool off if that’s cool with you?” he asked. Tucker was the town flirt and loved to have fun as much as the next guy but he truly was just enjoying Elijah’s good company- it was nice to not feel like someone was mad or disappointed in him for a change.

𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐫 @whatthe-tuckb​

                beck is standing in tucker’s living room, plastic bag in his hand when his former best friend comes home. he hoped he’d had enough time to gather his things and go before tucker came back but apparently time moves a lot faster when you’re wallowing in self-pity. “ untwist your panties, i just came to pick up some of my things. i’ll be out of your hair in no time. ” he says. as far as break up go this has got to the be worst. the tension in the air almost makes it hard for the blonde to breathe, deep down he knows this is a mess of his own doing once again he took things too far. too stubborn to take it back and too hurt to listen to tucker’s reasons he finds himself ruining one of the most important relationships in his life “ where’s my leather jacket ? ” 

Tucker had only been leaving his place to run out to grab food for Blue, catch a bite to eat himself or work. Even then he preferred to eat his meals in the comfort of his own four walls or blend in behind the scenes at work to escape his thoughts. Coming home from work he checked his phone again, still no messages from anyone-  sighing Tuck shoved his phone into his pocket to unlock the door. Jiggling the key into the lock he noticed the deadbolt was already unlocked- twisting the knob he entered prepared for an intruder when his face contorted to see his ex-friend as of late standing there collecting his things. “Good, they were beginning to bug me anyway.” he said not really meaning it but having to say something back. Placing his bag onto the counter he grabbed a beer from the fridge and cracked it open. “Fuck if I know. Why would I have any use for that thing?” he said taking a sip. It was harder than it seemed to pretend to be so cold to someone whom he just wanted to vent about everything too. But the tension was thick, you can feel it in the air and even an outsider could sense something was off. “So what are you just never going to hear my side of things? Is that your plan?” he said deciding to take his go at cutting the silence. “Whatever happened to being brothers man? Was that all just some made up bullshit you said until something better came along?” he sighed. “I didn’t even have the chance to tell you before someone else did. How is that even my fault?”