it hurts to watch the seasons change

[madison bailey, cisfemale, she/her] have you seen BLUE STARR lately ? yeah, i heard they're 21 years old and a STUDENT now in charleston city. i mean, i don’t know if it’s their LEO vibes or that they’re -REBELLIOUS and -ARGUMENTATIVE but also +PASSIONATE and +INDEPENDENT but they remind me of KILBY GIRL by THE BACKSEAT LOVERS. here’s to hoping they don’t cause too much trouble around here.

trigger warnings: cheating

elijah: lmfao okay well what's it to them? it's not as if you're 16 or something

elijah: how far along are you? i love babies. can i be god father?

elijah: i'm okay. i mean i will be lol. don't worry

blue: it's the scandal of it all, obviously, all they care about is gossip

blue: about six weeks ish? i'll talk to tucker, i'm pretty sure he'll be fine with it since beck has claimed uncle

ace: i'm glad i could tick girls off of yours

ace: and if you had that much fun, hopefully it was more than just a bucket list experience for you

ace: that's because i happen to be exceptional in bed, you were doomed to like it from the start

ace: and i liked it a lot, too

blue: honestly? i really really want to do it again

blue: i haven't stopped thinking about it

blue: but could we like...keep it on the low? i'm only just getting over the whole tucker thing

it had been a few days since maggie had seen blue after their conversation about everything that was happening. they had sorted most of everything out but at the end of the day blue was one of maggie best friends and she knew blue needed her. even if she didn’t agree with her actions, she wasn’t going to lose her friend over this. as much as it hurt her it just wasn’t who maggie was. the girl thought as she wasn’t busy and had no work that she would go over to blue’s to see how she was going and if she needed anything. the girl grabbed her things before heading over to her friends. it didn’t take maggie long before she arrived at blue’s apartment. she grabbed her things before heading up to her apartment and ringing the door bell. normally she would just walk in but she thought it was best to wait for her to open the door.  @bluestxrr​

jake was unreliable with a lot of things , mostly all of them regarding romantic feelings . but when it came to people he considered f a m i l y ( anyone other than his own ) he was a completely different person . maybe it was better to be his friend than his lover at this point –– he was pretty positive of that by now . but regardless , he was going to be there for her . “ well that would be great if it was … any other situation . regardless , this is something you should celebrate and so we will do that . ” jake makes a few turns before finally parking at the beach . in the front of his g-wagon you could clearly see a picnic table with a balloon that said ‘ congrats ‘ tied to it , and a small cake . “ i didn’t know how to do this … but i thought watching the sunset and stuffing our faces with cake would work . ”

elijah: i think ALL of charleston did lmfao

elijah: no i'm fine. don't worry about me. things are looking up already. how are you?

blue: i mean i have been getting some looks in the grocery store i would assume so

blue: exhausted, nauseous, ready for nine months to be over already

ace: really??

ace: it was my first time with someone pregnant, but ig that's not really the same

ace: did you have fun? bc i definitely did

blue: i mean i'm glad i could tick that off your bucket list

blue: like...a lot of fun

blue: so before i come over

blue: we should talk about last week

“Well, yes.. obviously.” he laughed for what felt like the first time in days. He knew that bringing it up would be tough but he knew that it was a real life situation and just wanted to talk about the tough bits they had to discuss. When she said how she was feeling out loud Tucker couldn’t help but agree. He had begun to feel that way as well. Of course after all the nerves and life altering spiral he went through he felt exactly the same. Maybe it was the lack of love he recieved as a child that made him already want to pour all of his into their baby. But whatever it was, he wasn’t going to deny it. “Me too. I guess that’s what two kids who never truly had it do, right?” he shrugged soflty justifying his actions. “I think we should. We don’t have to be together but at least our child will know their parents and that they’re loved.” he said. If it was something they could agree on it knew it would be this. Tucker chuckled scratching the back of his head, and with a nod looked up at her. “Oh totally. My son is gonna be bad ass too. He’s already gonna have a steezy wardrobe.” he admitted with a cheesy grin. “That’s… well that’s very true..” he said kinda feeling a bit shy which was weird for him. Blue and him had hooked up and seen pretty different sides of each-other during those times, but this new side of them both was a sweet change of pace. Tucker reached around her, his palm resting on her stomach. Soon it would grow and he felt excited at the thought. Wondering about all the new things to come. He also felt relaxed being there almost like he could sleep and the exhaustion of his recent anxiety was set at ease with her. “I don’t regret it. Not when it’s going to give us this. At first maybe yeah.. I did..” he admitted aloud. “I know it sounds shitty but it’s just because it’s a mess of a situation. But I think that i’ve reached a point now where I don’t care what they think.. I’m excited and I’m ready to do this with you. We’re gonna do right by our little accident, and eventually when we leave the house we can be proud of it.” 

          caroline noticed blue’s space was a bit more chaotic than usual; just something as simple as that observation told her that blue wasn’t doing too well, and she needed a friend. knowing maggie probably had a better leg to stand on in her fight with blue, caroline felt like she needed to get over whatever pettiness she wanted to hold onto in this situation and just be there for the girl standing in front of her, who was clearly defeated and scared. as if caroline hadn’t already forgiven her, the apology felt sincere enough to warrant it even further; she knew blue genuinely felt bad. “b,” she sighed, immediately pulling her in for a hug. “i’m not mad at you. i have no right to be. the situation is shit, yeah – but as much as you kept me in the dark about you and tucker, i also wasn’t honest about how i felt about him. so right now all i care about is making sure you’re gonna be okay.”

Before he sat there he stood aloof, looking at her and shrugging at her words. A small half smile crept into the crevice of his lips and he titled his head. “If I had some burger buns I would’ve brought them just to say bun in the oven but they were moldy so I decided not..” he tried making light of it all. Tucker noticed it was the first time since he found out himself that he felt his shoulders relax and his jaw unclench. Sitting down he realized this was the closest she’d willingly gotten to him sober or not horny enough to look past her hatred, selfishly he didn’t mind. “You-you do?” he said looking at her and the turn of direction the conversation had taken all of a sudden. His face grew serious- in the time that she had told him he had weighed out the options they had in his own mind. Of course the first one being he knew the ball was in her court. It was his baby but her body and that came first and foremost. But besides terminating the pregnancy the only other option he felt right was to keep it. Knowing first hand that growing up without parents was no life to live and left an impact on you that followed you everywhere and never left. Nodding slowly he looked over at Blue, for the first time looking into her eyes and taking in the softness behind them. It was behind them he saw the truth- the real her he felt he never got to see only in small bits. But he nodded, “I do to.” he agreed. “But I don’t want my kid to ever know what it’s like to feel unwanted. I was a foster kid my whole life and I’d take the baby before I ever put him or her up for adoption is that clear?” he asked making sure they were on the same page. With her laying close Tucker lightly wrapped his arm around her. If he was being honest with himself he kind of needed the comfort as well. She was the only person not completely hating him right now and it felt like an overwhelming release of emotion laying here. “I know we don’t have to be together to raise this baby Blue and you don’t have to like me. But tolerate me enough to do what’s best for him?” he asked almost pleading. Laying back down he sighed, “Tell me about it. I feel like I’m being watched. I feel like I pissed so many people off, hurt people who didn’t need to be hurt by this.. It’s a mess.” he breathed. “But I guess if I can escape the public eye with you it wouldn’t be half bad.” he said giving her back a small smile. 

elijah: hi hon

elijah: no don't worry i heard all about your situation already so i didn't expect anything at all

elijah: no i'm all good i'm on my way somewhere now. thank you though thats sweet of you

blue: i think half of charleston heard about it

blue: no it was shitty of me, you're going through stuff too

codi: is there anything I can do to help?

codi: i guess i don't really have as many questions as i thought i did. i just want to make sure you're okay. this is a lot to handle and although the situation is a little/lot of difficult i know you can handle it!

codi: plus i've got your back!

blue: honestly? i'm not feeling too bad. i'm just exhausted

blue: the situation is fucked. but there's no changing it now

"because i was drunk and stupid i guess. i don't really have an excuse, and there's no point in making one. i fucked up."

"i mean...not great honestly. i can't stand tucker most of the time and my parents are mad at me, so is everyone else and now i probably have to drop out of school. but i keep on keeping on i guess."