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oh geez

This is both extremely dramatic and also not canon-esque at all, like i dont see anything remotely like this happening, but it was fun. I do want to see them argue. Not only fight knives-and-guns-blazing, but like an ideological crossroads. In this case: their approaches to their life views. Aside from the obvious ideologies they've adopted from garden and wise, Twilight is very self-sacrificial, seeming not to care about the impact his death would have on those depending on him, putting everything in for the mission. On the other hand, Yor knows the importance of life, she had to live in order for her brother to live, she takes lives up-close so she knows their weight and how easily they can be snuffed out. Therefore, she's more careful about being able to make it home so that she can be there for her family.

with this most recent arc, even though she isn't getting a full view of how much harm he puts himself in, that last panel in the last chapter of him dragging himself in the hospital (although it was funny) kinda got me thinking. What if yor got an inkling of how little he cared for himself? and what if, when confronted about it, he refused to stand down?

- sneezed wrong

- turned your neck a little too fast

- slept weird

- took the trash out to the curb and stepped at a slightly different angle than usual

- breathed

- failed to breathe properly

- breathed in the wrong stuff. Allergy time

- looked too hard at something too far away

Like, maybe Loid asked her to pick up groceries for him one time and she ended up getting hit by a car, so now he feels he has to work three times as hard to make sure he doesn’t have to endure a loss like that ever again.

She also doesn’t know exactly when she died, so Loid could’ve been a grieving single parent for a few years before he met Yor, which would explain why he’s so anxious all of the time.

A lot of people assume Yor is really gullible and just takes things at face value (which, to be fair, she does), but from her perspective, everything about Loid makes sense as a widower trying to raise a child and maintain a stressful job.

Even his normally sullen attitude could be lingering depression from his wife’s death.

From Yor’s point of view, Loid has really been put through the wringer and gone through a lot of undeserved pain. But despite all of that, she still sees him as an incredibly kind and patient man, trying to be the best parent he can be for Anya.

It’s no wonder she wants to be more useful for him: she wants to ease the burdens she thinks he’s been carrying alone.

batch of my latest SXF art! 🧁 doodles and all, included...