|| Derek ||

Name : Derek // Age : 19 // Pronouns : He/Him

I am so glad I didn't have to babysit today. I'm so glad I don't have to babysit tomorrow either. I was up all night in the trenches of my own trauma and couldn't get a good night's rest at all. I've been up for at most 4 hours and I'm already drop dead exhausted again.

I wanna say I lowkey hate my friends but it is not lowkey and it isn't a lot of them it's just some of them. because why the hell are you always so rude whenever I try and talk to you ? I know people who will complain about being lonely or not having people to hang with and then whenever I try and chat and hang they're insanely rude to me ─

I feel bad for my friend , he came over and was immediately swarmed by my family. he didn't make it through the front door before not one but four different girls were waiting his arrival.

not just one but both my Mom's , my Mom's 2nd Mom , and my little sister were all just there on the porch waiting. not to mention my little sister joined our hang out for a bit ─

I mean I invited her , I wanted her to try and hang out but she could not chill out.

I had a friend over today and it was great. I mean my little sister was . . . herself , but that was fine , I just kicked her out of my room.

I had a lot of fun though , I like hosting so I hope to have my friend over again soon.

I can perfectly boil and peel eggs repeatedly. I refuse to not see this as a flex. perfectly soft boiled eggs all peeled without a scratch on them.

I can never sleep at night. no matter what I do , when I wake or if I never sleep it's like the sun setting sets something off in me. I'm up in and ready to do something , anything.

" wow that's a lot of sweat for one guy " . . .

it's only 2:00pm and day is already derailed. I woke up late for my babysitting job , my Nanna's tire went flat so she couldn't go to work , and I ended up getting kicked outside to eat my lunch.

it's 95° someone save me.

I went from crying about a character I relate to losing his little sister to immediately being reminded why I hide in my room when I see mine

she spent the entire dinner - both the getting ready part & eating actively trying to piss me off because she'd never seen me get angry before

. . . I've been kicked out of 14 different schools for physical violence based on anger issues

my Nanna comes home , I am free of babysitting ─

I am immediately handed my very grumpy 9 y/o sister , tasked with keeping her from pissing off her Mom , and cleaning off the kitchen table absolutely swamped with other people's stuff.

not my proudest moment but I shoved my Nintendo Switch in her hands. I would rather her be on Minecraft than intentionally pissing people off.

back to babysitting. I was so close to having the day off too , I just wanted to stay home and clean my room 💀

eating snacks in the closet nest I made for my friend , we're watching Delicious in Dungeons since I accidentally sold him on the show . . .

is my room clean ? I mean I'd say so ─ my Dad ? he'd definitely disagree , but that's not a me problem that's his problem. my room my rules. anyways I'm gonna take a break from cleaning for a while to just chill and eat cherries.

for the first time in a million years the house is finally empty and I can clean in peace. wish me luck y'all , I got so much laundry to do and dishes to wash. FML.

nothing burger update I just wanted to show off my dinner because I've been begging for home made stir fry for a week