My apartment is literally becoming a pintrest photo. I love it!

It was nice to hear from my papa that he liked having me here, especially since she made me feel like a burden the entire time. I'm going to miss my papa so much.

I'm getting a bit nervous now that it's time for me to move. I have to keep reminding myself that I do deserve all of this. I really have worked hard, and everything I've done is enough. I am enough. I have to finally accept things and let myself be happy. I will let myself be happy.

Please just give me a chance.

I absolutely can not fucking wait to move out and make my place so cozy and perfect! It's going to be so healing.

I'm so sorry. I tried so hard to get you back this time, but I don't think it's going to happen. I hope we meet again but I just don't know and I'm just so sorry.

I absolutely have got to work on my communication skills with people when it comes to employment. Employers intimidate me and make me anxious. I don't know why, & I don't like it.

Today was a strange day. She was oddly nice to me all day. I'm not sure why she was nice to me, but I do know that it was all fake and short lived. By tomorrow things will be the same as they always are. It probably had something to do with the fact that her granddaughter was here so she couldn't drink as much as she normally does on the daily. Besides that though, I came outside for a bit and tossed the ball and then papa and I took a walk. The most exercise I've done in months. It's time to start becoming a fully functioning human again, and then on to becoming the best me I've ever been. I can do this.

shit is just so weird somethings ya know?