in control

I’m a lot happier than I’ve ever been. I’m in a healthy and loving long term relationship, but that also means I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been. I’m trying to start working out and eat healthy again, but I can’t stop comparing it to when I mentally wasn’t well.

And when my boyfriend’s grandfather makes comments like “when did you get an appetite. You never used to eat this much” it makes me feel like shit because I was in the trenches of an eating disorder for majority of my relationship. Even more so, it feels undeserving when his stepmom makes comments on how small I am. I’m not even close to how small I COULD be. His entire family (step mom included) is super tall. I’m 5’0, so I’m always going to be considered small next to them, but please please stop commenting on my body.

This could be me in like a year

Reblogging so this can be me in a year c:

I’m afraid people gonna leave me because dealing with me and my sadness is too much.

“skip dinner and become thinner” more like “skip dinner and you have an eating disorder please get help”

“a moment on the lips, a lifetime on the hips” more like “a moment on the lips is okay to have, please take care of yourself in this lifetime”

“every time you eat you delay becoming skinnier” more like “every time you eat you give your body the nutrients it needs in order to survive, please keep surviving”

“you’ll be able to wear whatever you want when you get to your ugw” more like “you’ll be able to wear whatever you want now because fashion =/= weight”

“Don’t reward yourself with food your not a dog” more like treat yourself because you’re amazing and deserve happiness

This is actually really helpful thanks

I love this post for how it politely demolishes destructive pro ana/mia mantras i love it

“if you can pinch an inch” congrats you have skin and flesh like all humans

I… I… thanks… for sharing this cause I needed a lot.. hopefully anyone who follows me and needs can benefit from it too…

I really wish this was a thing I saw a few years ago, but I’m glad it’s circulation is moving strong. Just like you my wonderful followers <3<3<3 be brave darlings, I believe in you

Take care of yourself, guys. Eating is good for you, your body needs it or it will shut down. If you feel like you need to get healthier or lose weight, there’s tons of ways you can do that, that doesn’t put your body in danger. NEVER STARVE YOURSELF

My upper thighs make me want to be ✨deceased✨

I NEED to get back to that point where it was so easy to not eat for days and days. I miss that empty feeling. Now I just feel heavy and disgusting.

i remember when i used to fast at least 2-3 days every WEEK without fail and was so confused when people said it was hard and now it’s like ??????? dumb bitch mindset pls come back 2 me instead of struggling to fast