nayy

Is it manipulative to want to feel.. wanted?

I’m not “battling mental illness” or “fighting bpd” they are in fact, beating the ever living fuck out of me

my favorite conspiracy theory is that things will get better

might cancel this whole healing thing and start listening to the voices

what doesn't kill you makes you weird at intimacy

the “i wanna go home” never leaves my head even when i’m physically sitting in my bed

Just because I pretended to handle it well doesn't mean that I did.

“your trauma doesn’t define you” no actually it does. it dictates every aspect of my shitty life.

The fear of abandonment isn’t just about people leaving, it’s the gut-wrenching belief that you aren’t worth staying for.

growing up is terrifying i wasn’t supposed to make it this far and now my future depends on me and i have to make wise choices and decisions and i’m just sitting here like a clueless little kid

my biggest s3xual fantasy is to have someone notice my absence and wonder about me lol