PETEY

not far away. not in a whole different continent from mine. here. right next to me where i can feel his touch, his scent, everything.

i'm extremely sensitive to physical touch, but i know that i'd feel safe in his arms and let him hold me. as if he were a soft pillow that i can hold and sleep on.

and he'd be mine. the only one i love and the only one he loves the most out of everyone else. it makes me upset how my paranoia can get in the way so easily and make me question things about our relationship. but i know he loves me. it's my mind playing tricks. but i hope that i am the one person he loves the most.

he's the only guy who i have felt a deep connection to. we both engage and enjoy the most niche and often considered "weird", "cringe", or "disgusting".

i often fantasize about him cutting me, carving his initials on my flesh. he could easily overpower me at anytime considering how big he is, and would fill me up with his seed while he records the whole thing just for him to watch it later and keep that moment saved on video forever. and i know damn well i'd be embarassed, looking away from the camera as he films me being bred by him and also me sucking him off. it'd embarass me so much i wouldn't be able to watch the video, but at the same time i'd be so aroused at the fact that he got me on tape.

or him coming back home after a long day of work and finding me in our room not wearing any pants or underwear. and god do i wish i had male genitalia so that he could just tease my cock while i whine and grunt pathetically and starts jerking me while also taking pics of me so he can jerk off to it later.. or maybe show it to other peoples he's close with just to brag about it.

who else would love me so much to be willing to do all of this? i know that he is my soulmate and i hope he wants to marry me someday. i am nothing without him, he completes me.

not far away. not in a whole different continent from mine. here. right next to me where i can feel his touch, his scent, everything.

i'm extremely sensitive to physical touch, but i know that i'd feel safe in his arms and let him hold me. as if he were a soft pillow that i can hold and sleep on.

and he'd be mine. the only one i love and the only one he loves the most out of everyone else. it makes me upset how my paranoia can get in the way so easily and make me question things about our relationship. but i know he loves me. it's my mind playing tricks. but i hope that i am the one person he loves the most.

he's the only guy who i have felt a deep connection to. we both engage and enjoy the most niche and often considered "weird", "cringe", or "disgusting".

i often fantasize about him cutting me, carving his initials on my flesh. he could easily overpower me at anytime considering how big he is, and would fill me up with his seed while he records the whole thing just for him to watch it later and keep that moment saved on video forever. and i know damn well i'd be embarassed, looking away from the camera as he films me being bred by him and also me sucking him off. it'd embarass me so much i wouldn't be able to watch the video, but at the same time i'd be so aroused at the fact that he got me on tape.

or him coming back home after a long day of work and finding me in our room not wearing any pants or underwear. and god do i wish i had male genitalia so that he could just tease my cock while i whine and grunt pathetically and starts jerking me while also taking pics of me so he can jerk off to it later.. or maybe show it to other peoples he's close with just to brag about it.

who else would love me so much to be willing to do all of this? i know that he is my soulmate and i hope he wants to marry me someday. i am nothing without him, he completes me.