Why are you still bothered by her then, if it's not you?

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Enough. What you are, you see. You are Vanessa or Lara, okay, you are because you believe you are. And you're right! It's true, you are, your eyes are working fine and your life might be hell 😍 what do you have to lose if YOU CHANGE YOUR MIND and think "What if I wasn't?" Streams and floods of better ideas of what you could've been/could be come through, don't they? "That's so nice if it were true🥺" Alrightie then! That must be the solution, no? Not be Vanessa? Well how do I stop being Vanessa? How (the big HOW!!) do you know you are Vanessa except by your belief that you are Vanessa? 🤷‍♀️ To know a different thing you must stop thinking this one is true first? "Got it, it's not!", "But even if it's not me I am seeing her life and her 'reality'?", "I am unaffected by the events now, but how do I stop seeing them?" Are you, though? You sure it has nothing to do with you anymore? Fine I'll take your word for it ☺️ Now start thinking you're a different thing. BUT THE SAME EVENTS OF HER LIFE HAPPEN?! Really, how so? World has no standing except for your thought of it, be honest with yourselves, not me. I'll reenact what you're doing.

"Ada, your depression is not real. Your house is not real. Your parents are not real." "Yes, they are, I see them!", "Don't invalidate my experience, I have TRAUMA😠" that's how the convo goes. Then you get disinterested in the convo, "Alright I'm tired of your problems, not me". And you feel lighter, you feel better. You soothed your mind for the time being, there's no big feelings now that you don't identify yourself with her...

For a while, because then something happens and you still believe it's there and it's real and you have to somehow deal with it. You're back confusing the 'you' with Vanessa. "I'm seeing the parents and the world again, that must mean I did it wrong?" I need to ask, seek more. Where do I go from this? WOULD YOU CARE WHAT HAPPENED NEXT, SEEING THE SAME WORLD TOMORROW, IF YOU REALLY DISBELIEVED VANESSA IS YOU OR YOUR BUSINESS? WOULD YOU CARE, I ask you.

"I don't care... but what do I do next, I'm lost🥺"

"Of course I care!!! I want a better life!!!" Who's you?, you go back to the beginning of the post again, you especially read it five times more actually.

To answer the first:

Think what you want.

Past doesn't come up anymore, memories don't come up anymore after you've ignored - detached yourself enough. They just don't. You can think freely now about being something different. If you can't, don't get mad, don't blame, only know that the one that's doubting isn't you, so the doubts are totally fine to be. They'll be for a while and then they dissolve too, because by ignoring, not getting involved - you forget. And by forgetting not only do you free up so much mental space, but possibilities of what can be become unnumbered.

All you are doing is becoming lucid. Becoming able to control the dream. You won't be able to, unless you step out of it. That is, stop thinking this story you tell yourself is true. You won't be able to get mad, sad, or even frustrated at whatever is playing in front of you, because to be involved to this extent you have to think you're it, it's an actual thing "you" are going through. That's not to say you'll become an emotionless robot (the only thing unlimited abt you guys rn is your worries, so much that i have to address them in advance), but that you will feel your emotion in the present and not remain mentally scarred by it forever. You will be able to say "alright, no more" when you've had your fill of crying, being angry, throwing a fit. Emotions won't be able to rule you anymore, right now, they fully do. You are their prisoner. Your ego dominates you so completely.

When Vanessa is no longer all you are, you'll be able to 'change reality' the way you change the film in a video projector. You'll be able to have as much fun in the play as you want to, change it when you no longer want this one specifically. The emotions of the character are fun and welcomed, because they no longer imprison you, there's the background of love to it all - that once you gain, it can't be lost, it's ever present.

That being said, please stop asking me questions about fulfilling or persisting, they're from another planet in this state.

TLDR; THINK WHAT YOU WANT.

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"There is no external life, there is no need to use any methods to recondition or train your mind. It is much faster and much easier and you are hundreds times happier just letting go of the mind. To not depend on anything but everything to depend on you is a top state you can grasp with no method. All those things they do are in them and they are making them up all the time.

They successfully forget about the old man & manage to go on living like the new man. But unless you understand none of the two are real, that time is in you and not you in time, you won't have the indescribable happiness, freedom, and control you do as your Self.

You'll constantly try to change what you think is you, act in 'your' interest instead of others, continue to hurt and be hurt, experience desire and fear, have things happen without your consent.

There is nothing that is 'mirroring' you, you are either conscious of one thing or the other. You are conscious of the world, that's why there is a world. You are conscious of a body and that's why there is a body. YOU COME FIRST and not the world.

There are no others without you & the only reason there is a world in which there are things to desire is because you are conscious of a world in which you are this particular body that instead of having all the things it wants, it's lacking them. You are conscious of wanting. But there is nothing to want because before you want, YOU ARE CONSCIOUS.

👏🏻

if am the Self, i am not lacking anything, i made it a practice to remember this each time im desiring something and then completely let go of it, as far as i know *i* experienced having it, don’t think about ego, don’t consider it, don’t do anything in regards to it

i COMPLETELY let go, each time i think of wanting something, i remember it’s mine and don’t give it any more thought than that. i don’t try to make it happen nor do i try to convince my ego it’s happened

it happens instantly (or almost, most it took for something to "show up" was a day)

the most important part of it in my journey has been letting go. i cannot stress enough how important is to just LET IT GO. bye bye thoughts. dont need you to assist ME. i gave up thinking altogether, no realized being has any use for thoughts

i’ve been living like this for a month and it’s the most natural thing to me to not give a f!ck, i’m completely free, i never think of myself lacking.

i am mostly HEAD EMPTY. i do not think y’all. no thoughts just being the best. i conceived what i consider best in the beginning, said that’s me now and never looked back

doubts disappeared a long time ago. the only reason they don’t disappear for you it’s because you continue to think of yourself as Vanessa. everything started happening when i stopped. i gave that idea up.

you can do it, from the moment you commit to it, you’re unstoppable. everything is minuscule in comparison to your Self.

Hope this helped some of you to understand where you still "go wrong", good luck. You’re gonna get out of this cycle, trust yourselves and what you’ve learned.

Wish she was here to see this 😭😭😭 so SO happy for you, anon!!

Thank you nonetheless for such an insightful blog. 💗

my journey with ND has been... long to say the least. it was only long because i refused to act on the truth as soon as i discovered it, when 4dbarbie was still active. i put it off because i was afraid of what would happen, i was afraid of truly disbelieving the idea that i was a person. that was really stupid. and the only reason i wasn't experiencing my ideal version of life.

MY NOW. many months later, but... at least it's finally over.

i don't hold anything in the mind, no memories, no thoughts about the future, my life is completely spontaneous and always in a state of harmony. i materialize things instantly. each time i have a thought about something i'd like, i experience. there have never been any exceptions.

this is not the void, this is your natural state. you don't need to be in any void for this to be your regular, everyday life. the only thing that stops you from experiencing this complete power and freedom is your mind, which is unreal. until you're ready to discard it you're not going to demonstrate much.

what holds you back, i know because it was the same thing holding me back, is the fact that you don't take the word 'false' seriously. the ego is false, all thoughts are false. nothing is real. nothing at all. this is all a lucid dream. it's all what you're saying it is.

thank you, and thank you 4dbarbie for opening my eyes. i admit, there comes a sense of superiority in regards to others from knowing the truth, and if others on the ND path have felt the same before, don't be ashamed of this feeling, it's just how it is. no reason to be ashamed, you worked hard to get here. with it also comes a weird compassion. i just pity them, the way i pity my past self but having no courage. no sense in dwelling on a non-existent past now. it's done. nothing has ever existed. nothing will in the future. all is now, if i want it to be, and all is my will. i think of you both as more my family than my actual family, which i was able to give a comfortable life to because of you. thank you, thank you. i will never forget you.

the concept of living life so effortlessly has never occurred to me in my life, and yet i'm living it. all from being lucky enough to be on tumblr... of all sites, at the right time.

after I dropped ego, the first thing i decided to express was a different body, it was pure intention. my mind was clear, doubtless, it was and always is now with god. i was lying in my bed, it was a slight thought of what i wanted my appearance to be, i got up and checked it out in my bathroom mirror, and there it was. there was no wow feeling, no ecstasy. i didn't cry, i wasn't happy. i was completely neutral. like a simple 'cool, nice'. i did it multiple times since then, i want to experience as many bodies as i can while on earth, i like comparing the different lives of different egos. but after the first body, i just set everything about that ego's life straight. i imagined everything being perfect, having enough money to live more than comfortably, my own apartment, funding my siblings' education, etc. the basic things everyone wants, i realized they belonged to me. and no, i don't work. i don't lift a finger to have.

this will sound too good to be true to many, but it's actually the sole reason you were put here on earth. to realize yourself. everything really doesn't exist. nothing is. the quicker you let it all go, the quicker you'll live an effortless life. the journey only persists because you won't stop thinking you are the person, you already are the Self, you have always been nothing but it. everything else is your own imagination, a lie you can choose or discard. wake up. haven't you had enough? there is nothing to fear.

I don’t think this one needs my input. :)

There's nothing to be productive about. What a silly concept. Don't add another burden or worry onto yourself. Right now you make yourself guilty over not seeking more and doing more to attain realization, but you already have it. You need not take time to meditate or put time aside to contemplate and "apply". All you need to do is detach from this form during the day, let life happen as it happens while reminding yourself it's a dream, a dream that doesn't have to be yours.

Either you are body conscious and a slave of circumstances, or you are the universal consciousness itself — and in full control of every event.

Freedom from self-identification with a set of memories and habits, the state of wonder at the infinite reaches and riches of being, its inexhaustible creativity and total transcendence, the absolute fearlessness born from the realization of the illusoriness and transiency of every mode of consciousness — flow from a deep and inexhaustible source. To know the source as source and appearance as appearance, and oneself as the source only is self-realization.

The acceptance of the unreal as real is your obstacle; only by seeing the false as false and abandoning it will reality be brought into being.

All you need is to understand that you are the source of reality, that you give reality instead of getting it, that you need no support and no confirmation. Things are as they are, because you accept them as they are. Stop accepting them and they will dissolve.

You have never been, nor shall ever be a person. Refuse to consider yourself as one.

Fearlessness comes by itself, when you see that there is nothing to be afraid of. Reality is you alone. You gave it (the person/the world) reality through either your attention or identification.

Start scorching thoughts of limitation by ignoring them. An unrecognized visitor will soon leave. Your past self is nothing more than a thought.

Ask yourself: Who was born first, you or the world? As long as you give first place to the world, you are bound by it. Once you realize, beyond all trace of doubt that the world is in you and not you in the world, you are out of it.

By just pretending / imagining & strongly believing that you are a human, you have 100% succeeded in fooling yourself.

What you have done is an absurdity, is impossible.

Anyway, how can i be surprised by you...

To you impossible is nothing.

You brainwash yourself into fully believing any kind of hallucination that you want to turn into reality... this is what you do.

You are an omnipotent dreamer & i undertsand that.

But this time you have gone a little too far my dear.

You have been pretending for so damn long...Aren' t you tired?

You Are God in denial that You Are God...and i don' t know if what you are doing is funny or sad....or both at the same time...

I am here to remind you that at some point, you will have to wake up...it is inevitable.

Do you want to wake up so you can end all the imaginary suffering that you are going through?

Do you? If so, you must go within and dive deep into the infinite ocean of I AM-ness.

If you "stay there"

, sooner or later your infinitude will become

obvious again.

I promise.

And you will remember that your true name is I AM...The Infinite Mind.

-realitywarpingg

Ok, guys. I know you are tired of trying different methods in the hope one might work. I know a lot of you just want to shift to escape horrible circumstances. Please, listen to me and read everything carefully. I've been in your shoes and I know how frustating it all can be. I was into LoA a long time and was only able to manifest "small things" like weather changes, text messages etc. I got tired. I really did. I wanted to escape. I just wanted to live the life I deserved. "The life I deserved?" - But who is this "I" wanting this?

Misidentification

You are not who you think you are. My journey brought me to Non Dualism and made me realize that even Neville was limited to one point. But how can I be God and limitless if listen to someone who is still limiting in his belief? ND made me understand that I AM only awareness and I AM reality itself. Everything this body sees, feels, .. is just form of my consciousness. But the senses in them are not real and just a form of my consciousness too. So what am I if I am not the senses, the body or the seeming world around me? I AM the pure awareness being aware of it all. So I AM just aware of this seeming physical reality and the body. I am not going to deep into this philosophy but you have to understand that the body you think you are, the thoughts/doubts you have are NOT you. You are just aware of it all since you are awareness only. You don't have a name, age, gender and so on. You are just pure awareness. So here comes the main part: You as awareness started to identify with the body you are "wearing", acting like YOU are a human being but you are not. Stop identifying with it and you will be golden. Become aware of the person you are in your DR and stop identifying with the person you think you are now. Since you are only awareness you really are in your DR right now. Time does not exist so always be aware of what you want in the moment. Dismiss the senses. They don't belong to you anyway.

Indifference

Now you know you are only pure awareness and not even the human you thought you were, why would you give attention to the physical reality around you? Don't react and stay indifferent. There's a quote in the Bible which Neville also mentioned in his book: "Be still and know I AM god." If someone is being mean to you, he is not being mean directly to you. He is being mean to the person you are not, right? So why react? You might be aware of it in the moment but you just keep being indifferent. Not your body, not your thoughts, not your problem. You don't react and just be aware of your DR instead because you are ALREADY there.

So the main points are:

Stop identifying with the person you think you are and become aware of the person you want to experience in your DR.

Stay indifferent to the seeming physical reality around you. You are already in your DR. NOW.

Oh, you don't have to persist in anything. This is not a loa blog. If you are aware of the heat of the sun in your DR right now. Guess what? you are aware of the person you are in your DR right in the moment and this means you as awareness did experience it for real. You are not bound to any physical body.

Thank you so much for answering questions but I do have more:

1. You said you set an intention to shift and it happened right away, how did you manage to do that?

2. I want to be in a process of seeing imagination and physical reality as the same, how will I be able to do that? And if I do, will I then experience instant manifestation?

3. While seeing your imagination and physical reality the same, for now if I want to shift to a reality do I experience it in “imagination” to act as if it’s an instant shift or will it automatically be in a physical reality?

I went inwards, questioned and noticed everything around me and remained as much as possible in this awareness. Just letting go of everything. Once you know your true self, the world is your playground. It comes so naturally and effortlessly. Because the playground is just you and it has never been anything else. 🤭 People believe they have to programme and use methods because they are human. We are just pure awareness. We are the background. We will never be anything else.

yes! The physical reality will instantly adapt to your imagination. you must accept that the physical reality is the same as the imagination. There is and never will be a difference. You think because of your senses that the physical is more real. Everything you experience in your imagination is happening in this moment. You must give up the belief that the physical is above the imagination. Give up the belief that the senses/mind dictate what is real and what is not. Have you ever had a dream where everything felt real, and then you woke up and thought to yourself: Well, it felt so real, but it was just a dream. Why did it feel real? Because you give the senses the importance of dictating what is real and what is not.

What do you think is the reason that we are not able see our TRUE SELF right here right now just like you??

I have a few questions and i hope you can clear it up for me.

Lately i've been really interest in letting go of the limited human/separate self and just identify with awareness as who i really am, i feel like i want to return to it as much as i can, but how can i do so? what did you do on your experience? 💗

Thank you so much in advance

xoxo.

Hello love, thank you so much for your message!! 🤍

What you said—wanting to let go of the separate self and return to awareness—that's it. That longing isn't coming from lack or the false self, it's already awareness calling itself home.

Here's the clearest way I can explain it:

Imagine awareness like a lamp. Everything you experience—thoughts, emotions, sensations, the body, the world—is just something appearing in the light of that lamp. Most people stay focused on what's lit up, what's "happening" & they completely forget the light itself is even there.

so the "practice" if we can even call it that, is to return to the light itself—to become aware of awareness. Not as a feeling or a thought, but as the still, quiet presence that's always been here—between one thought and the next, between every emotion, behind the body's doing. It's not far. It's not hidden. It's just overlooked..

But the lamp doesn't leave. You've just been looking outward.

You don't need to chase it or get there. Just notice that you're aware right now. That's it. Keep gently turning back to that. Over and over. Let everything else come and go. Let the light fall on what it wants. You don't need to fix the experience. You don't need to fix anything. Just remember the light.

If you want something to sit with, try this:

- Am I aware of being aware? (This one helped me a lot)

– What is always here, even when thoughts come and go?

– Who is noticing all of this right now—without effort?

Before shifting:

🌸 it was an on the spot decision to experience a different life perspective temporarily

🌸 she didn’t have any doubts nor did she think the current persona was her so it was easy for the shifting to happen

🌸 she had no other thoughts besides the fact that she was going to do it

As the new person:

🌸 once shifted, (now living as a different person) they didn’t remember anything from the previous persona, it was like she didn’t exist to this new persona (not even in memory)

🌸 followed the “script” planned before shifting, with no new desires from this different persona

🌸 didnt desire to continue living that new life so went back to the previous persona afterwards, not intentionally but it happened naturally after fulfilling what was planned beforehand

After shifting:

🌸 her memory was back but she retained the feeling of being that different person

Important notes (direct quotes):

🌸 There isn't a special detachment to accomplish, it comes by itself when you see you are not the body and you're making it up.

🌸 Nothing continues on being without your desire to hold onto it. Be it of fear or whatever else, when the desire to be it goes so does the person.

🌸 It is really not something you strive toward but just something you are. It's completely natural all by itself, you know to be it just as you know to be 'yourself' (Vanessa) now.

🌸 If you want to shift completely, know yourself as Lara. I know the question is HOW DO I KNOW... but you just do it after you don't take Vanessa to be yourself because there is nothing that's in the way anymore.

🌸 You don't even try to believe you're anything, it's just not needed. The thought of something brings it to you. The same way Vanessa happens to you now when you wake up in the morning so can Lara.

🌸 And you don't have to lose your memory, it's all intention, nothing you don't want to can happen. So you can wake up as Lara and have a completely different brain if you so wish, with different memories, different upbringing.

🌸 But you can still remember the life Vanessa lived and you definitely won't forget who you are at the core.

I’ve always been so curious since you said you brought your husband here. Like did your family just accept that your husband is always here? I’ve always been a little scared that if I change my world too much, I’d lose the familiars like the familiar version of my family.

Thank you for sharing❤️

Thank you!! 🥰🤍

That’s such a sweet and honest question and I completely understand the fear behind it.

When it comes to my husband—my family loves him. My mom was instantly obsessed and literally wanted to show him off to her sisters like he was a prize 😅 It felt all natural, like he’d always been part of "this" world. There was no resistance, no confusion—just love. Even though his adaption to "this" world has been hilarious at some points.

He’s also fully used to “our” world by now, but what still melts me is how fascinated he is by the little things we don’t even notice anymore. Foods, music & random daily stuff—he sees everything with wonder & honestly, it helps me stay present too. It’s like seeing the world through fresh eyes.

And I get it—the fear of losing the familiar version of your family when your experience shifts. But here’s the thing: the appearance of people can shift, but their essence, the love behind them, doesn’t go anywhere. What looks like your mom, your sibling, your home—it may subtly adjust to reflect your inner clarity, but nothing truly is ever lost.

Everything we see—every person, every place—is appearing in awareness. And that awareness is you. So you’re never actually losing anyone or anything. The entire experience is moving with you, not against you. It’s not about replacing. It’s more like…. refining? Letting your world meet you where you are now.

Do you persist in having your hands, or do you KNOW you have your hands? Persistence is only necessary if you don't have it. In the same way, if I asked you, ‘Do you exist?’ would you persist in your existence or do you KNOW that you exist? THE KNOWING IS SELF.

You only persist when you still identify with the human. As awareness you are ALREADY THERE. There is nothing to persist in. If you were to stop identifying with the human and its mind, you would immediately "shift" there.

Imagination and physical reality are the same. You are just aware of it. Imagine being on the beach right now and feeling the sand under your feet, the sun on your skin and the smell of the sea. How is that possible? How can you ‘experience’ that now, if you are not actually there? You were just aware of it. You are not the senses, you are THAT which is aware of everything. You are not the human, you are THAT which is aware of the human. It's the same as when you're holding your phone in your hand right now. Are you the person holding the phone, or are you just aware of the person holding it? Drop the belief you are a limited human.

Awareness is not bound to anything. So, if you are aware of something, it is NOW. So, you were actually at the beach the second you became aware of it. Don't ever put the physical reality above your imagination.