viskos

btw you cant save people. the most you can do is try to understand them. the most you can do is let them be themselves. all you can do is empathize, be there

You ask me about love and I’ll start talking about heartbreak.

It’s weird to grow up in a family where you know you’re loved but you don’t feel loved. And then later in adulthood you understand how almost impossible it seems to cross that distance and let yourself experience closeness, how otherworldly love feels now and how love feels unbearable at times. You flinch when someone tries to wholeheartedly love you. And over and over you see so clearly how you cannot be loved unless it's from afar and love is mixed with that familiar sensation of distance and coldness.

when Florence Welsh said "What a thing to admit that when someone looks at me with real love I don't like it very much / Kinda makes me feel like I'm being crushed"

it is easy to love someone when they are perfect, when they are soft and light, when they are filled with hope and happiness. but loving someone when they are wearing their flaws like an apology, when they are breaking down, when they are carrying their hurt, or their anxiety, or their past within them - that is when it means the most.

My problem is I never healed I just kept going