so... 𝘚𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘩𝘪𝘤~

So, I've been in the TeeTeePor/PorTeeTeePor fandom for a little over a year now. I've been their fan since a bit after their DMD friendship era and right after Your Sky ended, like, early 2025(?).

I feel like I didn't say it enough or at all back then, for that matter, which is why I wanted to address it.

Both Por and TeeTee went through massive backlash solely for their shipname last year. It was so bad, that it had both the actors at a very tough spot, with both of them constantly worrying about their own hard work and lowkey feeling insecure about their fans' love and support.

They posted about it, talked about how it was emotionally and mentally affecting them. TeeTee had even admitted on crying about it to Por and the first time I read that post, it broke my heart.

Initially, they had decided to keep a free dynamic for their projects. With many shipname ideas like PorTeeTee, PorTeeTeePor, TeeTeePor etc. It gave them more freedom to choose the kind of script they wanted to work on, freedom on what kind of roles they wanted to explore.

But this received significant backlash because certain "fans" couldn't perceive the idea that heteronormative standards don't necessarily apply on queer relationships. I had someone once tell me that it's not a big deal, just a ship name, and people prefer it to be a certain way, why are you getting so worked up about it?

Because the people in question were getting downright harrased on the internet for it! Everywhere, it was just negativity, people throwing around random words of disagreement on something as small and insignificant as a shipname.

The amount of homophobia I came across at that time baffled me because hello! It was 2025, and I was still coming across such gross, outdated standards. I am not gonna be political about this, but I have every right to say that people were wronged!

I don't care if someone finds my words too harsh, but it was bullying, it was harassment and it was inhumanity we are talking about here.

TeeTee and Por had the chance to finally break those outdated bl standards, be the first Thai bl ship out there to have a switch sort of dynamic, or a label-less dynamic. And if not first, then atleast one of the many few.

And given that both TeeTee and Por are so young (Tee's literally, barely 2 years older than me), not to mention it was supposed to be their first big acting project.

Because I didn't know people cared so much about two downright strangers' bed preferences! You wouldn't go to a straight couple and ask them how do they like their bed-dynamics, now would you? Because it sounds freaking ridiculous to me!

Queer ships and shows aren't just for entertainment, even if that's somewhat a part of it. They are mostly out there to raise awareness, make actual queer people feel better about themselves and make them understand that they, too, matter.

It's not meant for people to fetishise and downgrade and just go on about with their lives without even acknowledging the damage they've left behind.

Tee and Por were eventually pressured into getting a fixed dynamic in December last year. And I don't think it was because of the company, but after much discussion of all the parties involved to finally put an end to all the drama once in for all.

And there and then we lost another ship to the same, useless heteronormative standards.

I am not making this post with the intention of urging them to change their dynamic again. I am not. I don't want them to pressure themselves because of something like this again. Although I would definitely NOT hate the idea if they ever decided to change it to a non-fixed dynamic again, either.

It's completely their choice. Their comfort is what matters the most. Because Por and TeeTee didn't ask us to stand for them, speak for them— we chose to.

And I think that people who include themselves in fandoms like these have at least that certain level of maturity.

Although, if we actually did have that in the fandom, such useless online-bullying ordeal wouldn't have happened in the first place.

I had to be out all day, so imagine my struggle with how I avoided and didn't open social media for a single second the whole day.

I avoided it like a plague.

And when I finally got to watch the episode...

Waiting for so long, I hadn't realized just how attached I had become to this show. Watching the last episode, I had this nervous feeling constantly nagging me at the back of my head. But I also felt happy. Happy that we've come so far in this journey. I still remember watching DMD friendship, nearly two years ago. And discovering TeeTeePor who didn't really have a ship name at the time. Then they won, and months later, we got the pilot of Duang With You. I used to watch that pilot multiple times a day, to the point that I had learned the dialogues by heart at one point. It also led me to read the novel sometime later, although I kept leaving it unread so as to not spoil the entire plot for myself. When the trailer dropped, it was sudden, and a surprise for sure.

And now, we've finally reached the final EP. And boy, was I in tears. I shed a few at the opening song itself, which was quite embarrassing even for me, ngl. (I don't usually get so attached to shows, you see).

But I saw myself in Duang so much, that it became something I couldn't ignore. Not gonna lie, though, he is still a lot better at the patience game than me.

I also shed a good few tears at the final performance. All three of us, Duang, Qin, and me cried, lmao. And when Qin ran to Duang like that, it was OVER for me.

The whole montage of their flashbacks had me grinning so wide, while heavy tears ran down my face.

They even had their lovely moments with fluffy (Khonfoo)!!! I honestly hadn't expected them to add that part from the novel, but who am I kidding, it was totally obvious now that I think about it.

This show is everything— the best, and good!

It is just like TeeTee said last night, "Forever" isn't really a thing, but I, too, want TeeTeePor to stay with us for a very long time.

The last year has been hard on them, and on the ones who support them so wholeheartedly. So, all I want from them is for them to stay strong, and trust the love and support their true fans have for them.

So I hereby present to you, the "hold me until I can't breathe, and die merging my soul with yours" kind of yearner eyes.

Today I'm sharing a very painful story. If you can share it, it might save my brother's life.

@hazemsuhail

They never actually dealt with the abuse Qinn had suffered from. Decided that the best decision from then on was to just do whatever Qinn wanted and buy him anything he liked. When all he ever wanted was to not feel like a stranger in his own family.

People often forget that kids remember things. They keep the smallest memories locked inside their little hearts and grow with them, grow alongside them.

And something as huge as abuse can be dealt with by a kid in two ways. They either get so traumatized by the whole thing, that they end up forgetting any memory of it happening whatsoever to protect themselves, or get so deeply scarred that it ends up impacting their entire life in a way that will take years to mend, if ever tried to.

They never brought it up in front of him, and although I do understand the notion behind that, I find it hard to believe that they never even noticed the sudden quiet nature he had become accustomed to? He was a lively kid, but now he didn't speak much, didn't ask many questions, didn't complain, and suddenly became an ace in everything he did? Wasn't that way too big of a transition to go completely unnoticed? I know they led busy lives, but to be so detached from your child's life, and even have so much as the audacity to think that you were great parents just because you bought him whatever he asked for?

That's some insane level of ignorance.

Qinn is a sensitive person despite his persona. Who has been wronged multiple times by the people he has loved.

And still all he ever wanted was to be hugged at least once by his family. And honestly, he has all the right to that. It was long overdue.

He deserved that hug. He deserved all the love Duang had for him. He deserved to be a part of his own family and have the comfort of calling his family his home.

Nobody can do it like Duang, but I know it was hard for Qinn to confront his parents too. Even my heart felt so heavy and charged with anxiety at that moment, that I was staring at the screen wide-eyed just anticipating what would come next.

I am glad Qinn's parents are trying now. Like Qinn said, it's going to take a bit of a while, but that's a given, because he has spent a large part of his life feeling ostracized from his own family and has somewhat resented them for never being there for him when he needed them the most. It's not easy to move on from what has always been familiar. But I know Qinn will get there one day. And Duang would be by his side at every step.

Duang: obsessed with his man's legs

Jamie: obsessed with his man's legs

Duang: cooks for his man

Jamie: knits for his man

Marvis: flirts in english

Qinn: flirts with his fist