i wish i was a guy so bad, not in a gender dysphoria way (or maybe it is that way), but i wish i could be friends with guys the way they're friends with each other, i wish i could just be half naked 24/7 and no one would care, i wish i didn't bleed EVERY MONTH folding over in pain (giving baby voldemort on my bedroom floor bro 😭) and i also wish i could experience a gay relationship as a man (i love my lesbian relationships but i do wonder, and especially because there's so much more gay media for men that women that gets popular - i wonder why hmmm 🤨 - so i probably have an idealised version of it anyway but).
i also think i'd be an amazing guy and boyfriend and all this wasted potential my god, it hurts me. it genuinely hurts somewhere in my heart when i realise i'll never experience life as a man.











