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i love that trans ppl think body hair is hot we're so cool and right for that

well you see I was a very sad child and then I was a very sad teenager and now I am still very sad

one of the most important things, perhaps the most important thing I have learned in my life is that nice people can fuck each other up in monstrous ways. people can be bone deep kind and loving and self reflective and still lash out under pressure. people can be earnestly neighbourly and charitable and hospitable and generous and still find themselves in situations where they become selfish. people can be well meaning and easygoing and gregarious and hold deep seated opinions that turn them into vicious little bullies under the right conditions. nobody is just one thing, and nobody stays one way. every person is a kaleidoscope and they will surprise you. you will surprise yourself. it's not a warning and it's not a judgement and it's not an excuse, and it's certainly not a reason to stop trying or to stop trusting. it is just a fact.

Being with someone who wants to learn about your past history, not to punish or hurt you, but to learn how you need to be loved

sometimes I have brief moments of clarity like oh yes. love and joy should be guiding me and it will all work out. documenting so i remember to express this

The buzz of feeling loved and being able to show someone love is like the beautiful feeling I get after swimming for a long time

that 'i have to get ready for work' edge of the bed sit. you know the one.

i think everyone should drop out of school and follow an unclear path