Corvus

Why, you ask?

The Main Character by Will Wood on my bari uke :b

And its confusing to me, because i think I want a qpr with a woman (cuz. Yknow... dyke). I want a woman to see as closer than family, but as someone I can be overly intimate with. I always put forward a maternal energy to my friends, but i want to feel that maternal energy for myself, and feel taken care of by someone I can be utterly myself with. But ive never felt that close or cared for by a woman, so im scared of what it'd feel like

I love simultaniously being aroace AND a lesbian during pride month.

I love having no interest in a romantic relationship most of the time, but pride month just reminds me of what life could be like WITH a girlfriend and it PISSES ME OFF.

A Chappel Roan song came on my work's radio yesterday and made me think of how AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL AND SMART AND TALENTED WOMEN ARE. and how it would be SO GREAT IF I COULD JUST BE LOVED AS MYSELF, BY A WOMAN WITHOUT FEELING LIKE A BURDEN

I hate that i KNOW for a FACT that I am not good with romantic relationships. I have difficulty prioritizing myself, I get dependent on the person i'm with to keep me grounded because all I want is for someone to take care of me, and notice all the little things about me like how I do for other people.

I want someone to help me feel confident and powerful for who I am, because I spend so much of my time trying to please other people.

I want someone to notice the details about me so that I dont feel as pressured to make them obvious. But im worried that that would exhaust the person im with, causing them to pull away.

How. How much are we seething for Tartaglia x Lohen content. Because. I may have. A fic in the works..