And while showing their "support" they often say things such as "it's WRONG to treat people lacking (whatever) BADLY, they can still be GOOD people".

Basically they are just defending who they find the most "morally ok" to defend in their little smooth-brain and claim to be "progressive" or another similar term.

When I had to take psych meds last year she would make me buy the meds in a pharmacy from another city where nobody know us, so nobody that knows her would know that I'm on psych meds.

And she once told me that when she talks about me to her friends and close acquaintances she feels ashame about my behaviors. What is forcing her to talk about me? Why is she even talking about me to others people??

I've already mentioned it before, but the only reason that she was favorable for me to see mental professionals was for me to potentially change and act like a "normal girl" instead of being so aloof and distant, and she told me to stop seeing my last psychologist after understanding my psychologist wasn't trying to change me.

She really only wants me to be some "normal girl", with a few friends to hang out with every week, go out, etc. I understand her childhood was shit and that she wants me to be able to be a "normal girl" and get a good job, but she has no right to force her dream life on me.

I know she cares about me in her way, but she's an ignorant bitch with 0 self-awareness even when I yell at her until she cries and can't sleep, so I don't give a fuck.

I have the habit of trying to find logic in thing and really disliking illogicality, and religions are pretty illogical. As for religions who somehow aren't, they have other flaws, mainly faith but also the moral codes that have the same issues than morals in general.

Just the concept of faith is something I could never experience. Believing without questioning is awfully naïve, it makes you vulnerable to misinformations and manipulation.

It makes me wonder how illogical and critical-thinking-lacking someone need to be to successfully be religious.

Of course religious psychosis and such don't count, it a different experience than lacking critical thinking towards religious beliefs while being able to learn it.

"But being a hater is too" that

People who support making things more accessible to everyone always talk about rather social thing, making communities "accepting everyone" and such. But there is nothing about making isolation accessible, nor making all the things they're supporting accessible without the community aspects.

It's partly because too much people believe "isolation = bad" as a general truth for everyone while it's not.

Having access to full isolation while still being able to live stably—especially if the person has other disabilities—would be great for some people like me. But I guess let's just forget about those with "less understandable" needs compared to the needs of autistic people or ADHDer.

The best example I have in mind is the North Pond Hermit who tried to isolate himself from society. If I remember correctly, he wasn't able to get some basic necessities since it would have mean he would have to interact with others, so he had to turn towards stealing to be able to survive alone.

Sure he succeed to live like that for more than 2 decades, but he still got caught and arrested because he wasn't able to live isolated legally.

I can understand my avolition stopping me from trying needle felting since I don't even have the tools to do this activity, but here I do have a damn piano.

If someone is 100% isolated from people but also with no distractions (no movie/videogame/music/etc), then I get it how it can make someone's health deteriorate, the boredom would be unbearable.

But if it's really only human contact that is lacking? Then it seems weird how someone could get both mentally and physically unwell from that, even if I still technically understand why.

On this app only, if what they're talking about isn't a criteria of SzPD or a Negative Symptom, then there are barely any chances I will relate.

I have no trauma (a few bad experiences but nothing traumatizing); I have no fear of engulfment nor anything of this type, I don't mind sharing things about me if I'm bored; I don't feel lonely; I know what my personality is like, how to describe myself, etc; I consider myself a human since it's a biological fact and I don't feel like I'm another thing; I don't have a secret want to have friends; my disliking of being perceived/of attention is only in real life, not online (for multiple reason); I don't dissociate; I don't daydream; and maybe a few other things that I don't have in mind right now.

If my texts seem weirdly written, and if it seems like I didn't understand something (most of the time I did understand but I'm just not communicating it well), that's why.

It's annoying when I want to be understood well. Instead I sound accidentally dumb or just awkward.

Before doing the scan I was put in a little room to lay down and a nurse came to put me on infusion, my first infusion ever, but it actually was less bothering than getting my blood taken for a blood test and the nurse was nice. Then I got the radioactive liquid put in my infusion bag (or whatever it's called) and the nurse left me isolated in the small room for an hour. She lowered the light intensity so I could rest, it was just a bit boring and there was a camera recording me in the room.

But during the 1 hour I was without my glasses and everytime I would glance at a stickman on a sign in the room I would see it dancing? I guess that the fatigue + seeing somewhat blurry that made me see it dancing instead of still.

Even my former "friend" in 8th grade knew I ate so much Babybels, so everytime there would have some Babybels at the canteen and that she was before me in the line to pick our food, she would pick a Babybel and put it on my meal tray before I say anything.