ย ย โ๐๐จ๐๐๐๐ฆ๐ง.โ The word trailing out with a laugh. โI used to think you rockerboys, and just musicians in general, didnโt have much of anything to stress over. I mean money makes everything, right?โ
ย ย Clearly he was wrong. Maybe the wholeย โmore money more problemsโ shit was right, even if money could make the life of many people. Fuck it certainly made his in the end. But the more he heard about people that actually had money, expendable money, it didnโt sound like a black and white happy life.
ย ย Dealing with all that shit, no โluxuryโ life was worth all the hassle. If you gotta keep working hard to have it, to keep it, then you might as well just live as is. Maybe not as a merc though, if you could help it.
ย ย โGlad my little childhood dream of being one of yโall didnโt pan out.โ
ย ย ย โYeah- people think its all sunshine and synth-coke, that you never have a fucking problem in your life. Shit was different back in the day, starting Samurai, getting off our feet. We hardly had an ed to our name, scraping by from show to show, somehow managing to keep it together.โ Fond memories, despite the stress, a part of him knew that if he could go back in time, heโd never change a thing.ย
ย ย ย ย ย โHell, even when we made it big, shit was never easy. Someone was always late to a show, getting in fights, keeping the band together was a struggle in itself- but fuck if it wasn't worth it. Best years of my life. Doesn't get any easier though, even now- theย shit I gotta go through to keep my music my own is, well, yโknow.โ A wave of the hand was given, a vague gesture as if it could summarize everything theyโd experienced, with Us Cracks and the whole ordeal. If anything it made him crave a smoke, the mere thought causing him to light up a cigarette between his lips, as if it would solve all his problems.
ย ย ย ย ย โSometimes dreams arenโt all theyโre cracked up to be. Fuck, even when it comes true youโre left with what-? where do you go from there?โ He was a prime example of that life, a big empty house up on a hill- lonely on a throne of dirty money.ย
ย ย ย ย ย โThrowing that aside was probably the best thing you did for yourself- but what was the backup? You still got a dream, despite giving that one up? Everyone's fighting for something right? What are you in this city for anyway?โ