Yesterday felt like one of the "old days". Colin and I went for a run early (we love sunrise runs). Especially in the summer--it's about the only time in Central Florida where you can exercise outside without getting completely destroyed by the sun and heat. The humidity is still impressive, though, and we were drenched by the time we got back. Maddie and their baby had left to visit her parents for the morning. So, we stripped down and took a dip in their pool. Just old friends. After a few minutes, he gives me that look, and minutes after we're in his bed. The runs don't always end that way, but it's nice when they do.
Most interesting was the discussion, post-activity, about Maddie, Kyle, and Ben--separately and together as a topic. Started by him asking me about Ben and my experiences with him. Underlying it is a cute, maybe moderate amount, of comparison anxiety. As in, as I've written before, Ben's endowment. Turns out, Colin is more "at ease" (probably not the best phrase but let's go with it) when she's with Kyle. With Ben? "I'm totally ok with it...it's just a little intimidating", he said. Kyle has the same feelings about it. "Tell me honestly", he asked, "I mean, contrast and compare".
Ha. If there's one thing I know about men and their competitive spirit, that's a dangerous, if very honest, question. I told him that yes, of course, Ben's large. Is that the end all? Of course not. Is it nice? Yes...sometimes better to look at than feel, but not always. I know for a fact, having talked at length (pun intended) with Maddie that she enjoys it. Of course I do to. But that's not everything. I told Colin the truth--that if I had my choice and could only choose one other lover, it would be Colin every time. We're old friends. The decade-plus that we've been doing this has built a lot of memories and maybe even more importantly, comfort.
I climbed back on top of him for round two and we just enjoyed the moment. His hands on my breasts, mine on his chest. The second round took a while for us both...like 30 minutes. But it was blissful. The rest of the day was so relaxed.
