Unrealism

- Red lights and purple acid -

When you text in a group chat and the person you were talking about is in it but you forgot. Whoops. SHOOT ME IN THE FACE...

Merry Grunge Christmas everyone. I celebrate Christmas for the fairy lights and the hot coco with snow.

So, I don't know what im really supposed to do right now. I recently was asked out by two friends at the same time and I decided I'd go back on my rule of dating right now. It was my resolution to stop dating until I got my life stable. ANyway, I dated one of them and turned the other one down. I't was pretty diffucilt. They were good friends but, he got over it. I havnt been dating him for a while but I know quite a lot about him now. Recently, he went o a trip to Tenesse, so i'm just home watching Netflix. I got on facetime and started talking to one of my good friends. She was helping me with my Tumblr since I sick with computers. Then we got on Twitter and she asked me out. At frist I didn't think she ment it but, we were Facceitiming and I quicky got the hint. I didn't really know what to do so i said I'd think about it. I don't know what my feelings are. I don't think I will for a while. Now I just don't want to be in a relationship at all. I think I may just break up with everyone and go back to my resoluion. I have this terrible feeling in my stomach getting too close to people and it makes me want to throw up. I have no idea why but, I wish I didn't. I'm just going to give it another go with him and try to hold out. Who knows, maybe i'll change and start to relax. But, with the hole asking me out thing, I have no idea how to handle it without sounding like an ass. The past relationships I'v had were with guys and they got really mad. I duess it's the way I turn people down. I used to just flat out say no but, that isn't right. I'm just going to think some more.

Things just got super complicated. Like, dang.

Me: *Walks away in frustration*