been trying to quit drugs at home and i genuinely don’t think people understand how sick it makes you. like physically sick. shaking, sweating, headaches that make me feel insane, body hurting, barely sleeping properly. and through all of that i still have bills breathing down my neck. everything due today and tomorrow (being the last day) and i’m still nowhere near covering all of it. it’s exhausting because i can’t even focus on recovering or resting properly when every five minutes i’m checking numbers and panicking over what still needs to be paid. i was able to pay rent with what i got helped with (meaning electricity and the rest is still a problem i’ll be in the dark soon probably later today) and groceries are literally the last thing on my mind right now. i don’t even care about food at this point. i just need to make sure everything is covered first so i can finally stop feeling like my chest is collapsing in on itself. i know people online only really see fragments of my life but behind the screen i’ve genuinely been struggling trying to hold everything together at once. trying to get sober while also trying not to lose everything. if anyone can help at all, even if it’s just a small donation or simply resharin this so it reaches someone who can, i’d appreciate it more than i can explain. i hate asking for help, i really do, but right now i genuinely need it.