Everyone mad at Buck for not realizing Eddie sees him more than Natalia like Eddie didn’t go on a whole ass date last week and acted like he was lonely and it was just Christopher and him like he hasn’t been spending most of his free time with Buck for months.
No. But like Eddie went on a date because he thought he was alone when we were clearly shown the previous episode that he definitely isn’t alone. Buck went on a date because he feels like nobody sees him the way he is after dying when we have seen so clearly since 612 that Eddie is the ONLY person who fully recognises Buck is not really dealing with dying.
Like. I don’t know what to do with it but CHOICES were made here.
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Long time lurker on buddie tumblr, first time poster because I NEED to get this out since I haven’t seen anyone mention it yet re: Eddie, repressed queerness and Catholicism. Everyone’s focusing on this episode’s mentions of Eddie being alone while ignoring a little moment which, to me, speaks hugely of Eddie’s repressed queerness.
I’m not necessary a gay!Eddie truther but I am a big fan of the idea that he is a repressed gay man. Why? Because when I look at him I see myself.
I am an ex-Catholic, gay woman who repressed my gayness so damn hard that I managed to wipe certain memories from myself until I start unpacking all my trauma and managed to come to terms with the idea of being not straight first, and eventually being completely okay with being 100% homosexual.
The reason this is bugging me so hard is because I had to pause 6x14 less than two minutes in to face palm and bemoan Eddie’s ridiculousness.
Why?
“I can’t marry a stranger.”
Pepa is presenting the idea of dating to Eddie and his immediate response is to jump to the idea of marrying this person.
When he was dating Ana, the only thing he was considering with her was her appropriateness for raising Christopher with him, not whether she made him smile, made his heart race, whether he couldn’t imagine life without her. But whether she was nice and easy to be with enough that he could marry her for Christopher to have a step mother but as soon as that thought became a little more concrete he panicked because he wasn’t actually ready for it.
Pepa presents a potential date to Eddie and he (however mildly) immediately freaks out and jumps straight to the idea of marrying this woman he’s never met before.
Eddie....what the hell, bro?
Even Pepa is like ‘who said anything about marriage?’
But the thing is I GET IT.
I totally get it. Eddie’s Catholic. I’m Catholic. We probably had similar upbringings regarding relationships and how you’re supposed to pursue them. For anyone who was lucky enough not to have Catholicism inflicted upon them from birth, you need to understand how being raised Catholic makes you view marriage.
When you’re Catholic, marriage isn’t something that may happen if you meet the right person and it’s something you both want and makes sense for you and your relationship. When you’re Catholic, marriage is an REQUIREMENT. It’s a must. It’s shoved down your throat as something you need to do in order to have a fulfilling life and be a good Catholic. Marriage is something to aspire to. It’s pushed on you as something to have to do.
The Catholic church has sacraments that mark important milestones in your life and one of those is matrimony. It’s not presented as an option, it’s presented as something you must do in order to complete your journey in life. Go forth and multiply and all that shit.
So, Eddie being raised Catholic and Eddie immediately equating dating someone with marrying them makes sense. It makes so much sense to me as a Catholic.
AND it also makes sense if Eddie’s a gay man.
One of the things I did prominently and repeatedly in life in order to repress my gayness was choose men to fall for, and I didn’t just consider them someone to date, I considered them someone I was going to marry and have children with. Be the good Catholic girl. I didn’t necessarily see it a religious experience but it was definitely an influence brought to me by being raised Catholic and attending Catholic schools.
Eddie being presented with nice, pretty, easy to get along with women he could date immediately considering whether he could marry them is such a repressed gay Catholic thing to do.
Oh, but Erin, he could be bi and the same thing applies.
Yes and no. I hope this doesn’t come out sounding wrong but I think he would respond differently if he was repressing being bisexual as opposed to being gay. Being bisexual would mean he could still be attracted to those women and could pretend his attraction to men didn’t exist and would still be able to have satisfactory and happy, lasting relationships with women. Eddie can’t seem to do that. He loved Shannon, yes, I will fight anyone and everyone who claims he didn’t, but he was younger then. I loved plenty of men when I was younger and I definitely loved them but that didn’t mean I was ever truly attracted to them or could have satisfying relationships with them in the long run. And wasn’t that the entire point of the Eddie/Shannon fiasco in season 2? That it never would have been good for either of them in the long run? As much as he loved her, he married her the first time because she got pregnant and then he wanted to try again with her so they could be a family for Christopher’s sake and because they thought they had gotten pregnant again.
The idea of Eddie focusing so hard on the idea that a good, straight, Catholic boy needs to marry a good, nice, pretty woman to me says he’s definitely repressing queerness. And look, I’m here for bi Eddie, pan Eddie, demi Eddie, any of them, just as long as the damn show acknowledges his queerness, but gay Eddie makes so much sense to me personally, because I see so much of myself in his reactions to the women he dates.
And so many things about his behaviour in 6x14 are calling to me in very familiar ways. But that’s just my thoughts, I dunno. I’d love for the show to do a really lovely coming out story for Eddie (a la Santana in Glee. Problematic show but my god I always cry when she comes out to her Abuela in 3x07). I try not to get my hopes about it but I’d like it.
Hi. So.... it’s been a long time. A few years. Life is crazy like that. I left tumblr and the fandom life for a little while to focus on myself and my real life. That was a good decision and I regret nothing except disappearing without really any prior notice.
I apologise.
I am back! However! I am so back! And I have several exciting pieces of news and they all relate to my writing.
First: I have recaught the writing bug for real! It’s fantastic, I’m actually writing again and loving it. So, I will probably be getting onto some of those unfinished fics that everyone probably thinks are abandoned. That will all be in due time though because of my second piece of news:
To get back into my Destiel fic mindframe I have just signed up for DCBB18. I am excited to get working on that in May. Which leads me to my third piece of EVER MORE EXCITING NEWS (well, I think it is):
I AM PUBLISHED!
Self-published, but still published. I took my old fic, All Your Edges and turned it into a book. And then that book developed into a series and I have so many stories planned and I am a quarter of the way into my second book in the series.
For anybody wondering about All Your Edges, I had to take it down so I could publish, but I do have a PDF so if you would like a copy I am more than happy to arrange to get it to you.
In the meantime, it would mean the world to me if you guys could check out my book and my website and see what I am working on and have a read of my blog. I’m doing Camp NaNoWriMo at the moment to finish of my second novel and then it’s straight into working on my DCBB for this year. After that I’m going to finish Show Me How To Love (I’m sorry it has taken me so long to come back to it) if anybody out there is still waiting. Then we shall see where I go next. I’m also going to try and be on tumblr a little more. I’ve missed it.
Thanks! Off to keep writing! Love you all! I’m home!!
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i just keep picturing jon asking ned about his mother, about whether she cared. oh, jon, she cared more than you will ever know. she loved you so much that she ensured your safety with her dying breaths. you were loved, you are loved.
