uninteresthing

I keep thinking about 20 year old Yuder, who's wanderlust made him dream for a new opportunity outside of his 20 year long forest home. 20 year old Yuder who was too socially unprepared to talk to Gakane who approached him first and turned down any opportunity to make friends. 20 year old Yuder who was upset that people made fun of him for being unable to wield a sword and decided to train till his hands bled. 20 year old Yuder who had his first ever crush but didn't know what to do with the feelings he couldn't identify. 20 year old Yuder who didn't know how to deal with bullies properly and instead chose violence and his short fuse to break them down. 20 year old Yuder who didn't know anything about the person he loved, and why he let Kishiar cling to him despite their twisted relationship. 21 year old Yuder who kept on trying to reach out to Kishiar, but still chose not to ask anymore questions because his pride was hurt. 21 year old Yuder who was Calvary captain but still mistakenly called Kishiar "Commander". And 22 year old Yuder old who was emotionally uninvested in killing Kishiar, too overwhelmed to seal the deal, but was given no choice.