as promised to @barneswilson

WE BEGIN AT THE BEGINNING! THEIR FIRST MEETING!

maria that’s gay as shit. like that’s a hell of a way to start a first meeting is there even a straight way to read this i don’t Think So

invincible iron man!! this was a bit of an ooc mess for maria and natasha both but it was a Gay ooc mess so I’ll let it slide. traumatized after being mentally attacked, maria turns to the only person she feels she can trust… nat. 

ooh then we got edmonson & noto’s black widow run, widely acclaimed, lots of maria in here. their relationship gets a lot more complicated. maria contemplates what natasha means to her as a resource but also as a person. she’s all “oh she’s valuable to me because she’s skilled” but it becomes clear she cares beyond that. this run was full of marianat material. i think this was when i started shipping it.

this is from secret avengers (one of my fave comics) and is overall a gay panel. as a lesbian here is my analysis: first of all maria is literally staring at nat’s chest like that’s not subtle. eyes up hill. god. but beyond that like “we’re never going to be soulmates” that’s an iconic line!! and there isn’t some context that changes it! hill just threw it in there for no real reason! and yknow what that sounds like to me? it sounds like they Tried. or at least it sounds like maria did. and either way it sounds gay

^ you can take this panel any way you like, folks

oh man then we come to the most recent black widow run (another incredible read, highly highly recommendy). hill is attending a SHIELD funeral for an agent who died on a mission partly because maria trusted natasha, and she’s getting crap for it from a bunch of other agents, one of whom criticizes her for putting faith in natasha despite her history and track record (sounds like your judgement’s getting a little clouded by personal feelings, maria).

at this point, natasha’s awol, but unbeknownst to SHIELD, she’s at the funeral too, watching everything through a rifle scope… because she’s got intel that there’s going to be an assassination attempt on maria. and she’s right.

so she does her black widow thing and efficiently neutralizes the assassins… but as it turns out…

…hill wasn’t the target. they needed to get natasha out in the open with her guard down, and they knew that the most effective way to do that was to threaten maria. 

and then we have these panels. and we have me, crying.

Rape Escape

Easy and very effective

Requires nothing but your body

I don’t think I made it very clear but last month I was sexually assaulted by someone who I thought was my friend (I don’t want to talk about it don’t ask), and it’s… really fucked with my head. 

Had I known this a month ago I would have been able to get away. 

So, essentially, I’m really pleading with you to reblog this so everyone who follows you doesn’t get stuck in the same position I was with no way out. 

It took me about a half hour to get down with practice, but once you get it, it’s an intuitive movement.