I relapsed in binge eating. I was very depressed and anxious about this all day. It made it so much worse.

I’m really depressed. It happens every Dec-Feb but it’s really overwhelming with moving + working + my physical health + mental health + now i guess my ED flaring up big time. Fuck.

I wish i had more time to focus on my mental health. Mehhhh I guess i’ll make it work like always. >.< it’s just so frustrating that I have to balance working to be able to afford things but also take care of myself? Idk. 

It’s been a very exciting yet stressful week for me! 

I’m struggling with binge eating again? Which is super frustrating given my GI issues. I have off from one of my two jobs for the first time since September 28th (i only took off for one day even though we were on a vacation for numerous days in the woods to get away from people in a socially distanced way).

I’m so super overworked that my mental health is really falling down the tubes but i can’t do much about it, as the only mental health meds that jive well with me don’t jive well with my POTS and MCAS meds. And i’m not absorbing my meds anyways at this point? Can severe constipation do that? Rhetorical question... but seriously. It’s annoying.

My insurance also changed and now my ADHD med isn’t covered - i’m really scared to change from Vyvanse to Adderall. Has anybody here ever made that switch? I’m really scared of the mood side effects. It really helps me to maintain a healthy balance with my eating, helps my mood and my BP. I’ve heard that Adderall can be very different for some people mood wise and i’ve seen that play out in my family as well. :( I may try to see if i can use savings programs to get the cost down?

My joints are feeling better by the vaccine i got has flared my shoulder up and my MCAS up a bit so i’ve been sluggish.